Monday, December 17, 2007

Truckin' on down the other side

So, I woke up to "Wolf Creek Pass" this morning. After the day with the kiddos, doing all the Christmas stuff, wouldn't you think I would have beautiful Christmas music in my head? No, I have C.W. McCall in my head...I suppose because YS and GF were talking about taking a trip to Colorado for New Years Eve. But still...Wolf Creek Pass....Do any of you know that song? It is SO retarded!

Yes. My tree is up. And it was a good day, if you don't count the mini crisis's that were going on all around me. It is completely impossible to get everyone in my family in the same room and happy all at the same time. I guess that is because I have raised three kids that are like me, or like the way I used to be, total control freaks....fighting mad unless all things go their way. In some cases, the fight was warranted. In others, ahhh.....not so much. We are always attracted to strong personalities, then never happy when the strong personalities are brought out to play. So, it was a typical family day here. These days, the drama just wears me out. I try and save it for the real stuff, and there was alot of that, and even that seemed to wear me out, too. I try to help, and that isn't right, but Mom is called on to DO SOMETHING when things go wrong. And you all wonder why I drink... :)

And since we are on the subject, I can't even say that alcohol is helping my current situation, it pretty much tastes like ass, and that has me bummed out. I mean, it is the one thing that I have been able to look forward to in my string of rotten days lately, and it doesn't mix with one or more of my medications, because I open the brown bottles and they taste like THAT, and they go right down the there goes another thing that I used to love....God, what are you doin' to me here?

I am really, really happy that I am not working today. I had been thinking yesterday that maybe it was stupid to be taking so much time off, but now I know that it isn't. I did WAY too much yesterday. WAY TOO MUCH. I knew it at the time, but it was hard to keep the family motivated, and I had STUFF everywhere, and I cannot stand to have stuff everywhere, so if I got up and started doing something about said stuff, usually everyone would eventually drift in the right direction again. My house looks wonderful, and I meant to ask D to take a picture before she left but she was in no mood for that, so I will have to wait and have her do it later and you all will have to just take my word for it. But the tree is beautiful and all the other decorations are up, well most of them anyway. I made a big pot of chili for everyone, and another pan of brownies....they are the easiest for that many people, and chili wasn't exactly on my list of good food but everyone else enjoyed it. By the time I accomplished those things, I was done in. My legs have started doing their own little "dance " again, and I am hoping that is merely from too much use. I am praying that's all it is. If my doctor wasn't such an ass, I might be inclined to call him...

I am in serious pain this morning, otherwise, I don't think I would be up blogging at two am, but I couldn't lay there anymore. I thought getting up and taking pills might help. So anyway, I am very grateful that I am not working today. I thought that I might go back to work this Thursday. I have to go to Des Moines on Wednesday and have the stitches out of my neck, and I thought that would be a good time to finish up the HO HO HO. Then if i went back to work on Thursday and Friday, before the Holiday, maybe I could be in somewhat okay shape. Oh, who am I kidding, the end of the year will be a nightmare, but I am not going to think about that now...
Monday again folks. Time does march on, doesn't it? I hope that your days are good, and that the song in your head is more worthy of your time than mine was. :) Have a good one!


Gypsy said...

Family....ya gotta love em don't you? My daughters can't be in the same room most of the time without fighting and trying to kill each other and they say twins are supposed to have a special bond. HUH....someone should tell mine that. I've now got 8 weeks of that until they go back to school so I figure pretty soon I will be bouncing off the rubber walls at the asylum where I am sure to finish up by Christmas. Yes I am having a bad day.....sorry.

Don't go back to work too soon Jamie or you will only set yourself back. Surely they can survive a little big longer until you are really up to the rigours of work. Rest, rest, rest, that's what you really need.

Summer said...

Oh no. NO. You are NOT going back to work this soon. Don't make me drive to IOWA????? Ha!

Thank you for all of your kind comments on my blog. It helps to know that you're out there thinking of me and praying for me. Friendship is cool isn't it?

Do NOT go back to work and I mean it.

JYankee said...

yes do not go back to work a moment sooner than you have to! orders from across the pacific!

Cheryl said...

You need to spend the day sitting or laying on the couch. Period. You need some healing time and you know it. Do not feel guilty. Do the right thing. Ya can't fix it if you don't take the time.

SOUL: said...

well... seems unanimous... take the time off that you have been given, and be grateful for it---- and rest woman!!! you don't need to be super chicken all the time. really--- you need to go slow and take it easy. i'm not sayin to lay down and be an invalid... just do a little at a time.
perhaps there is a lesson here for you? not the punishment from God that it feels like. trust me, i know that feeling well. but it always turns around----well...if and when i learn the lesson being taught.
yours is possibly:

"jamie slow your ass down, or I
will slow it for you"

it could happen. there have been times that i was taking on the world, and on the go all the time-- until God said.. ok, it's time for a break. hmmmm. and i was left with no choice but to slow down or stop for a while. so...take the hint, and learn the lesson early--- save yourself the future heartache of running, and fixing, and saving...other people all the time.
once you learn the lesson you're supposed to learn... things do change, and get better.
SO--- just take it easy, and take care of YOU for a while. k?
and call the DR... or no shrimp for you...ever. :))

there's my sermon for the day.

or not.

i hope you have a good day today... when you feel bad, or down, just look at your tree... it's finally up, and decorated, and beautiful!!!!


SOUL: said...

ps...i dont know that song... but really, it has got to be better to wake up singing crappy songs, than waking up mentally jotting down the to do list of the day???

SOUL: said...

i see meisha.. where's farfield???

i have a couple cool cats here---want em?

ummm... i was gonna say somethin else but i forgot--- so oh well. maybe it'll come back to me latah?

The Real Mother Hen said...

8 more days to Christmas, your tree is up, and you even made chili and brownies! Woohoo! :)

Btw, I would love to be in your living room. Not only I'm a control freak with a super strong personality, I'll roar and make everyone feels as if the Queen is in the room! :)

Portia said...

Your family sounds like mine, but I'm glad you got to spend the day together and the tree is up! I hope you are taking it easy and the pain lets up some. Still keeping you close in thought + prayer:)

abbagirl74 said...

I am so happy you were able to get the tree! The chili sounds wonderful, especially with brownies. Yumm-O!

Golden To Silver Val said...

I woke up humming LADY MARMALADE while thinking that I'm gonna kick the person's ass who produced THE WALTONS....made us all think that families get together and actually GET ALONG. HA! Ain't no such animal, so don't feel bad. I'm sure if it was life or death they would manage to save each other...but they sure do drive us nuts now just being together. I know what you mean...honest! My weekly "family nights" are just about to do me in. LOLOLOLOL

Yes...listen to your friends (me included)...stop trying to do so much. Kick back and relax and give yourself time to heal.

Sending good thoughts and virtual hugs your way. Have a great Monday. Blessings ~ Val

CCC said...

Feel better girl! I'm glad the tree is up. And you're taking some time off!

SOUL: said...

psssst--you up?

Summer said...

Why is Soul always up at the crack of dawn?


I LOVE the picture of Meisha by the way...looks just like my old boy cat-Bailey...

Rest don't think about work! take care of yourself.