Grrr....

So today, I'm feeling pretty poopy. I am a nervous wreck and listening to CrazyDog bark at this moment (outside) is about to cause me to run away. However, last night was a normal night, everyone slept. And for that alone, you would think that I would feel better. But it's Monday morning once again, and I have no job to go to. I am seriously thinking that I am going to get an offer or two this week, I have had a couple of really good interviews and still have two to go, but the waiting is getting to me. IT IS GETTING TO ME. And to Mark. Because he and I pretty much hate one another at this juncture. Grrrrr...

But on to other things. I had the BEST day yesterday, with my kids. Janelle did make it here, and I was very happy to see her, however, I'm not so sure the feelings were returned, she was here for awhile, but clearly unhappy. I assume that meant unhappy to be here, but I guess you never know. I did try several times to talk with her, to no avail. But having Craig and Jordy and Steph was also wonderful, and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Jordy and Steph were her until nine last night, they were doing their laundry...it was just an awesome day. All of us took a walk down memory lane, looking at old photos, and school papers and we all laughed alot...digging out old things really brings a family closer, you know? My mom was unable to be here, and that made me sad. She was having a really bad day. I worry.

So today, I'm here, doing what I do best, submitting resumes. And submitting the federal and state taxes, have I mentioned that I hate the IRS? And looking for xanax...good heavens. Out.

Tuesday, I get a little sideways

Help, I'm drowning in numbers...

I did manage to get our own taxes done yesterday, we owe the Feds, but get back about half of what we owe from the state. Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE the IRS? I am still working on getting it all pulled together for the Ice Cream Store, I don't know why this job is so hard for me this year.

My telephone interview from yesterday has been rescheduled for tomorrow. The thing is, the woman CALLED to ask me if that would be okay...does anyone else see the humor in that? Ugh..Also, I got a call from another place I had applied to and I have a face to face with them on Wednesday afternoon. At this point, I will pretty much agree to anything and take the job, I am getting pretty freaked out, and that feeling grows daily.

Janelle is not living here anymore, although I did not know that until yesterday. She had been gone all weekend, which is not unusual, but didn't bother to tell me that she had taken EVERYTHING with her this time. Uh, okay. But I was pretty shocked when I walked into her room yesterday and it was empty. I suppose she can do whatever she wants, obviously she can, but I cannot be the Mom she wants me to be when I know that what she is doing is wrong. I don't like him, I never have. He hurt her, on SO MANY levels. My words were strong, and if you all know me, I don't act that way with my children. I am fair, above all, I am fair. The mere fact that I DISAGREE with her decision should be enough of a red flag for her, even when her brain is not operating, that should be enough. The things that I know about him that I cannot and won't tolerate, came from her. I would not know any of them had she NOT chosen to tell me, and now she pays the price. It's too bad, and it rips my guts right out of my body. But I cannot watch it happen again. That leaves me, where? Well, here of course. And her there. And I pray that she is strong enough to take it, once again. Before you all tell me that I have to let her make her own mistakes, believe me, I know that. I really do. She is not a child, and has already made a few. I only hoped that she would learn from them. Perhaps she never will.

I have to shop today. It is my favorite thing to do, as you all know...lol. I have to go the city and buy some clothes. I may not survive. I will let you all know. Have a good Tuesday.