Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Do be do..

Spent my day yesterday, watching the inauguration, in-between the mundane household tasks. I cried a little, at the hope on the faces of those that traveled so far to be the words I sincerely want to be true...and at the realization that I couldn't call my mom and compare notes and thoughts. She was the reason I love politics, she was the reason I have my own ideas and beliefs. We often differed politically and we always enjoyed the discussions. I miss my mom. I had a dream about her last night, when I woke up, I forgot she was gone for a moment. That was the best moment I will have today.

I have spent the past few days on the phone, trying to gather information for/about the business closing that I wrote about a few days ago. In doing that, I have learned that MANY of the small car dealerships that I know so well and that are in this general area are closing. I don't even know what to say to that. For one thing, it explains why I am still unemployed, as I know as sure as I'm sitting here that my many years of experience in that field is certainly desired --- assuming, of course, that there is business being done. I knew the business in general had gone south, but I was not aware of the enormity of the problem. That knowledge doesn't exactly make me feel better, but it does help me understand.

I have been working on a deal for the ice cream store for the past two months...there had been an offer made, but certain things had to be done and accountants had to be consulted and blah-blah-blah. In the end, it fell through. Yesterday was the day that I was notified. That too, made me the cash flow here and for Bill is becoming an issue. He of course has now lost over three hundred thousand on the car dealership, and the cash that would have cleared on the ICS deal would have helped him along until the mess could be sorted out in court. My finances were needing the shot in the arm that the sale would have provided, as well. There is not a job to be found - at least not for me. I am overqualified for what is available, and they don't mind saying that. No matter how much I assure them that I will not be moving on to greener pastures when the opportunity arises. And of course, I would. They aren't stupid.

Today, I have to SHOP...with my sons. Have I mentioned that I hate shopping?

Happy Wednesday. :)


Brad said...

Its sad that so many business are suffering through no fault of thier own.

I get visit from folks like Mom visited you last night. It always makes me feel a little better.

Hugs to you sweatpea!


chicago..with Janelle and beebee and baby with your Markie. :)

sorry ..I know it's been hard for you..I wish I could help out. :(

Thinking of you!! :)

Cheryl said...

Two steps forward and three back? That's the way it seems sometimes. I really am sorry about Bill's business. So not fair. And you will get a job. Someone will see that you're perfect.

Are you still reading the book? I can't wait to start it.

Golden To Silver Val said...

Things are bad here too...our State's unemployment is the highest its been in over 20 years. Never thought I'd be glad to be OLD and be collecting a pension and SS...but I am. At least its guaranteed income...for now anyway. Sounds like a perfect day to make brownies and curl up with a good book! xxoo

Raine said...

The economy is becoming frightening for many I think. I dont know what the answers might be but I have a few thoughts I will keep to myself LOL.I hope it becomes better for you soon

Amanda said...

It's not a's a disaster. It's hard, and it's even harder NOT to take it personally. So I hope you aren't.

We're feeling it too. Husband, who's never been unemployed, is only working 3 days a week now. And I had to close the little business to concentrate fully on my son, but I would have done it anyway, as there is simply no demand anymore.

Shorting the stock-market seems to be the only way to make money anymore.

Anonymous said...

Things are getting dire here too. Just this week 2000 employees were let go from where my husband works. He is by no means safe either and if he loses his job I don't know what we'll do.

I'm sorry that this new year doesn't seem to be working out any better than the last.

Like Cheryl said though, you WILL get a job because you are worth it.

SOUL: said...

i'm sorry about all this stuff coming down on you-- and somehow, for whatever reason... it can only get better.
i know how much you care about those that you love. i know it's hard for you to watch your little ex home, be loaded up on trucks and doors being locked as all falls down upon you..

but you need to-- and i know, i know that's easier said than done for you lately.... but really-- you have so much on your plate in front of you-- i just don't think it's healthy for you to dwell on everyone elses problems. not saying you should be cold and unfeeling...or selfish even.... you couldn't be that, if you tried. it's not you.
but there is a place that you will come to, that once again, you will feel that you're walking on solid ground. i understand the empathy- as opposed to pity, or sympathy.. and even fear that you are goin through..... i just know in my heart that it's all just coming together for you. maybe not today-- or even next week. but it IS coming. good things happen to good people. and as for you and your entire clan... well-- there's no bad blood there. good things are comin your way.
not a single one of you-- especially YOU---- have gone through everything you have for so long--- only to be knocked down.

i don't know... i just feel somethin good, happy and healthy headin your way. for all of you.
you know how it is...
"your will, not mine, be done."

remember where you came from... and know that even if you have to backpedal a little.... you have the tools to move on to a better place.

i'm not always wrong. :))
i'm not always right either.
but i do believe that things will change-- for the better-- for all of you.

hmmm... i guess that's all i have to say for now

cept this----
I"M HOME :Ox->--<

SOUL: said...

omg-- sorry-- i wrote a book in your box :))
hugz n crap. :))
couldn't resist--sorry.