Thursday, October 25, 2007

Row row row your boat

As you all can see, I am late in my posting. That would be because I overslept, once again. Too many pills, I suppose. I am only taking pain medication when I am not at work, although the pain I have to deal with then is becoming pretty hard to bear. I left work early yesterday, all my strength had gone, I couldn't manage any more. I did make a little progress in my work, but i still have miles to go. The problem is that today isn't looking so good - I am not well at all this morning, I have no strength whatsoever. It seems that I can walk pretty well as long as I can take the preceding day off. As the week rolls on however, so does the strength that I have left, and by the end of the week, such as Thursday, then I am a goner. I just slid down the wall in the kitchen, and that was all she wrote. I suppose I will have to call the Dr about a wheelchair today, although it is hard for me to believe this is what my life has been reduced to. I can't even believe that I just wrote that sentence. The only thing that keeps me from digging a hole and jumping in is realizing that if I lay down all day today, tomorrow I would probably be able to walk fairly well. Heaven help me if that ever changes. :(

So, at this juncture, I am going to be here at home, worrying about the condition of my work that is not getting done. The end of the month is approaching fast, how will I ever get it all completed? Too much to think about now...I think I will go lay down. Perhaps I will have more positive things to say later.

I do hope that each of you have great days today, it's almost Friday! Later.

13 comments:

Cheryl said...

I looked at your labels. Pity party? You're just sharing your life, and we're here to lift you up. You're not alone. One day at a time, OK? Rest up today.

Amanda said...

(((((((((((Jamie)))))))))))))

you and Josie are on top of my send-positive-vibes list.

I can certainly see why the thought of a wheelchair makes your stomach do the funny flips. It IS a hard thought to stomach. Then again I think...if it can help you conserve your walking ability so that you can use them when you need to...until you have some solution for this...

Whatever works. Right?

Josie Two Shoes said...

Oh Jamie, my heart just goes out to you! Please do what your body is demanding, and give it the rest it needs today. I'll be praying for you. I wish there were easy answers. Bottom line is, you must take care of Jamie first! Maybe it's time to discuss some options, and getting some more help, with the boss?

Gypsy said...

I just left Josies and she's gone back to bed, you're going now and so am I!!! Despite our time zone differences (it is 12.30am here) we're all actually heading for the same place for a change. Yahoo!!!

Just do whatever you have to do to get through the next couple of weeks before you see the surgeon. I'm sure a wheelchair will only be a temporary measure Jamie. Take care, I'll be thinking of you.

SOUL: said...

i have nothing to bring to this table right now. i feel as helpless for you as you must for yourself. if there was anything i could do to help you, or change this for you, you know i would.
i'm gonna get a hard copy of that pic of us...and i am gonna send it to you--- then when you need to be held up---or your spirit needs to be lifted a little... you can just look at it.
and remember...
people care about you, and your prideful self. and even though it is so very hard for you to take time for yourself, or to ask for or receive help. your friends and family are willing to do whatever it takes to pull you through.

also... i know you will hate me for this but i'll say it anyways....
(one of the first comments you EVER left on my blog was... [i KNOW it's hard to believe that I remember, but i do.],,,)
you told me----

"this too shall pass."

and it will.

maybe not the physical stuff. but the way you look at it and deal with it.

we care. you gotta know that we care.

OX

simonsays said...

I talked with my Dr's office and they are trying to get me into the surgeon earlier, could have, had I not lived so far away, but there was no way we could have gotten there in time-H had to drive home and get me, then drive all the way up there, so maybe an appt the first of the week. We will see.

Thank you for all the concern. I don't remember being in so much pain recently as I am today.

SOUL: said...

thanks for lettin us know... let us know when you know the appt day, and of course the outcome. k?
OX

Portia said...

Your life will never be reduced to any one thing. But I hear what you're saying and I know it is hard to contemplate what lies ahead right now. I'm sorry it's such a bad day on the pain front. Take it easy. I hope you feel better:)

SOUL: said...

dontchoo just love her jamie???
hard not to aint it.

Alissa said...

Hang in there. I know it's rough. My husband lives with chronic back pain and we have to go one day at a time too. Don't be too down on yourself.

SOUL: said...

me again... just checkin on ya.
i do hope you are doing ok... dammit that's like a broken frickin record today.

how bout....
happy chicken chokin friday on the horizon?

no?

ok...

ummm....
no rum balls for soul
dammit.

(i saw you smile!)

g'night girl.
ttyl.

CRUSTYBEEF said...

Please hang in there, I agree with Cheryl people that care are thinking of you and wishing you well.
I'm sorry you had a rather difficult day..I hope tomorrow gives you more sunshine!!
Always,
Crusty~

JYankee said...

late stepping in here..do whatever it takes to give yourself and your body a chance to heal...whether it be surgery...temporary wheelchair... dont try to stand and force unneeded stress on your back... always thinking of ya and worrying about ya...