I am stronger this morning, temporary---I'm sure, but I will take it. I knew I would be, after a day of resting and sleeping. My appointment with the surgeon has been moved up to Monday. My neurologist' nurse told me to take is easy until then, I told her I would do my best to do that at work. I did have a talk with Owner on the phone and he explained that he has trouble looking at me in my current condition, I do understand that, even though I know you all will have negative things to say about that, and I am not defending him in any way, but it really is a relief to him when I am not there, he cannot deal with me in my current condition. Some people can't handle the ugliness of illness, and me not being able to walk really is pretty ugly. He wouldn't have told me that, but I made him. It is that helpless feeling that everyone around me is feeling, and some can't handle it at all, so they act mad. My own daughter handles it about the same way. So, at least I understand a little.
So today, I will work, at least the best I can. This is the worst possible month out of the whole year that this could happen to me, work wise. Well---other than January, I suppose. But anyway, one way or another, I will get it all finished. GMAC writes all the paper on our vehicles, (that means they have the floor plan---the loans) and every October, they have to have the contract renewed on the business and on the Owner, and that takes an enormous amount of time and paperwork, and they go through my numbers with a magnifying glass. My deadlines on EVERYTHING is the 31st, and they honestly could care less whether I die, they just want their numbers. You all know how business is. And I really do appreciate that you think there is someone else that should/could be able to help me, but honestly----there is not. We are a very small business...I do all the tax work, and I have all that to contend with, the end of the quarter reports, along with the other things, and by the time I explain to an outside party HOW to do it, I could do it. But I will manage to get it finished. What does surprise me is how much pain takes away my ability to think straight. I have quit taking pain medication at work, for this very reason, and still sometimes getting one thought from here to there can be quite a process. I have quit trying to over see other things on the job, such as what's going on in the back, but that does lead to other issues, and really, now the inmates are running the asylum once again...and yes, I know owner should handle things, but the employees do no go running to him and that is not their fault, they have learned over the years not to, so things are just running amuck. Isn't that the greatest, most descriptive word? Although I am not sure that things can run amuck, maybe only people can do that, but if that is the case, rest assured that is happening as well. :)
I hope each of you have great, great Fridays. I want to thank you all, once again for lifting my sad, sad spirits when I have needed you to. You are all the best. Later.