Just shoot me

So many things that I really shouldn't discuss here. SO MANY. No one ever said I shouldn't but it's hard to air all the laundry in public, you know?

Dammit. Who cares?

The person that shall remain nameless at work is on my last nerve, no---not the one you might think. A written warning is in order, and then she will be out of there. Too many absences, too much drama. They already think I am a bitch, so why not?

A year ago right now, I was in Las Vegas with all of my family. It was the last hurrah for my marriage, and to think now that I have been living/feeling this way since then makes me sad. I am missing a person that was there with us, even though I hear from her occasionally. She is no longer a part of the twosome equation with my youngest, and I miss her. I can see that he is now happier, that the girl he is with now makes him happy, and of course, that makes me happy, too. But that does not mean that I don't look back at the earlier relationship with sadness. I have never been very good at letting go, and I am struggling with it now. Yes, I know how stupid that sounds...I mean, it was his relationship. I am trying to find that middle ground with her---and I think maybe I can. We never discuss him, of course, it's against the rules. And I honestly do like his new girl, I am getting to know her, she seems to honestly care about him, and she is a little cutie. Ahhh...like I don't have enough of my own problems.

My oldest son has gotten himself in a bit of a financial situation, involving a very expensive speeding ticket. Great.... My daughter is having a hell of time with her life, and there is nothing I can do. She only tells me enough to make me worry, and their money issues are overwhelming.

And a very happy Friday to you all, too!

Piss-assy isn't even a word.....

I'm feeling pretty piss-assy this morning, most of which is directly related to physical pain. My damned back is killing me, it kept me awake alot. There is going to be no choice, surgery will certainly be in my near future. I cannot tell you how tired I am of it. The pain, the meds, the alteration of my life so that I can take it easy on my body. Gah. I don't see my doc until next month, and I can make it 'til then---and I am NOT looking forward to having a cage put in my spine. Holeee crap. If I am not careful, I will end up disabled, hell - I could, careful or not. This is not the way I envisioned my life, and I refuse to give in to it.

Sorry, I know how negative I sound...and if I keep on talking, it will get no better. So, Happy Tuesday to each of you. Catch you on the flip-flop.