Friday, February 01, 2008

Take these chains from my heart and set me free

Sometimes I don't feel like I am speaking the same language as everone around me---I talk, and I say what I think is very concise, to the point and quite clear. Yet, folks don't listen or I'm off my rocker. It happens in my personal life, it happens in my work life and it happens here, in blogland. From that, I have decided that I am not good at relaying what I'm thinking or feeling, either in words or on paper. It's frustrating. Practice I suppose - but honestly, at my age, is there really a chance that I will get better?

I just received a phone call on the house phone, no one but telemarketers and doctors offices use that number, particularly at three-thirty in the blessed am, but DAVE wanted to know how I am. Who's Dave, you ask? Why, I have no idea. I wasn't the slightest bit happy to hear from Dave, being woke up by a wrong number is no way to start a day that isn't going to be worth a damn anyway.

Tomorrow, we are going to visit both of my sisters, at my youngest sisters house. I need a break, I need to laugh, and Janelle just needs to keep busy. Janelle is very close to my youngest sister--they are not that far apart in age. The difference between them is only ten years, and it's the same between my sister and I. Confused yet? I am very excited because I get to see my youngest niece, she is three, children are good for a broken soul. I am also quite happy to spend some time with my older sister, she is my rock. The only one who has ever understood me, who has ever really "gotten" me, somehow she can make anything feel better. They live about three hours away, but that's not a big deal -- it will be good to go. :)

Today will be yet another day in the nut house. I have had to hang the skull and crossbones sign on my door once again, just to be left alone long enough to get any kind of work done. People at work (for the most part) are very caring and well meaning, and then there are those that come in or stop by to see me, or to have work done on their cars, and they want to talk, and I'm not even mentioning the family that is there right now, sitting in my office, or wanting to help me, or whatever...and the owner...oh my---what has kept me from killing him all these years is beyond me, but recently the urge is stronger than ever. And each and every one of them mean well, they want to know if I'm okay, from my recent surgery to my recent bronchitis/infections, to the most recent heartbreak of monumental proportions and all you have to do is look at me to see that.... and they all have the best of intentions, but I may go postal on someone or all of them soon. Under the best of circumstances, I run an asylum. The inmates are a handfull. The owner is the biggest nutjob on the premises. Usually, I manage with ease and grace and not one feather looks ruffled. Right now, my poor feathers are falling out. Just sayin.

Have a good Friday, or weekend, or whatever. I'll be around maybe later today, or in a day or two. Seems I can't make a decision or keep a promise or date or stay focused on anything long enough to remember what the hell I was supposed to do anyway. And why won't spell check work on blogger these past couple of days? Forgive my spelling errors....good heavens.

13 comments:

Gypsy said...

Enjoy your visit with your sisters Jamie and may it be just the tonic you need.

Summer said...

Blogger needs to be bitch slapped. I understand exactly what you mean when you say that no one *hears* you. Enjoy your visit and take care of Jamie a little bit today.

SOUL: said...

speechless much?

i hope your day is one that flies by-- undisturbed-- and that your visit with your your family is just what the doctor ordered.

peace today. and always.

got sosa?
oxox

JYankee said...

yes..go and visit your family... that is just what the dr ordered.!

CRUSTYBEEF said...

funny, or not, but my aunt, my moms baby sister, is also 10 years older then me..she's been my everything my entire life.

Damn it Dave, don't you know this WOMAN needs her sleep?

Always,
Crusty~

Oldy said...

Hope you all laugh like crazy ladies.

You feathers falling out ,means I have to tell you about Gross Gertie. :)

Years ago we had some chickens.They all had names and everything. Well ,one day Gertie flew the coop and found herself in the jaws of our pitbull, Star.

I happened to be at the kitchen window . So I run out there and pry Stars mouth open and rescue Gertie.

Well, apparently some spinal damage was already done . After that Gertie could not walk right . So instead of walking up the little ramp ,she had to hop.

Well , eventually this hopping thru the doorway rubbed all the feathers off her back.

She became the whore of the henhouse. All ugly, hopping away from her suitors.

She became known as Gross Gertie.

Keep your feathers woman!!! :))

Oldy said...

Hope you all laugh like crazy ladies.

You feathers falling out ,means I have to tell you about Gross Gertie. :)

Years ago we had some chickens.They all had names and everything. Well ,one day Gertie flew the coop and found herself in the jaws of our pitbull, Star.

I happened to be at the kitchen window . So I run out there and pry Stars mouth open and rescue Gertie.

Well, apparently some spinal damage was already done . After that Gertie could not walk right . So instead of walking up the little ramp ,she had to hop.

Well , eventually this hopping thru the doorway rubbed all the feathers off her back.

She became the whore of the henhouse. All ugly, hopping away from her suitors.

She became known as Gross Gertie.

Keep your feathers woman!!! :))

Foster Communications said...

I love spending time with my sisters. (It can be maddening too...) Enjoy your time with yours
Have a good weekend-you deserve it!

Rebecca said...

I hope this day goes by quickly, and you can get on the road to your sisters! Visiting with them will probably do you both some good....Enjoy, and safe journey.

ac said...

I feel the same way about my communication skills. And oddly enough, I also feel the same way about doing in those around me. ha!

Cheryl said...

The great thing about us bloggers is that we're here when you want us to be. When you don't, we're off in our own little spot.

Enjoy your time with family. See you when you want us to.

Amanda said...

Good plan Jamie. Wishing you TONS of good-hearted fun this weekend. :)

CRUSTYBEEF said...

I KNOW! The damn spell check is making me anxious!

so much for their scheduled outage..it made my grammar look worse then It already is..
or is it, "than?"

always,
me