What pickle bucket?

It's technically Monday morning, although if the truth were to be told, this has to be the middle of Sunday night. For whatever reason I cannot sleep, again. Go ahead and choose one, any will do. I think the biggest one is coughing---I am fine when I am awake, or I have been anyway, but when I lay down, I start coughing. I think I need a Dr today, because actually, I am not feeling the best, this cold feels like it is turning into something worse.

Okay, so I had THE best time yesterday. Soul is such good medicine - for the soul. Have I mentioned how wonderful a person I think she is? Not that we even talked about anything - of any importance. It wasn't that kind of time together, both husbands were there, the time was too short...and if I were to tell you all the truth, both of us were strangely quiet, for us, that is. We ate like piggies, which is what I always do at Red Lobster, it is my JOB, and the guys made jokes, and ate like piggies, and my husband coughed and hacked and coughed some more, but that's another story...but we sort of sat there and relaxed and we were able to let down our hair and breathe...and it has been a long time since I have had the chance to do that. We talked of everything, and we talked of nothing and it was just good. She and soulman are really good together. He takes care of her---protects her, worries over her, and yet, not in an overbearing way, not in a way that offends. I respect him tremendously. She looks wonderful but beat and she needs more fun and happy. I think she's getting there. She was astounded at my recovery, since the last time we saw each other, I couldn't walk, and when I left her she cried because she was afraid perhaps I wouldn't ever be able to. Now, she had to remind me to slow down - which I will be more careful to do in the future. :) We did laugh a little, and we didn't cry, although I think maybe we could have, but that would have been okay, too. It's funny where this life leads you, and who it leads you to. And like Forest, I guess that's all I have to say about that.

When we got home, D was here waiting, and quite ready for me to return. She had a good day, everything was fine, but she is quite anxious, understandably. Tomorrow is the appointment with the specialist, and of course, I am praying that all things are perfect, that what was seen on the ultra sound was a mistake, and that nothing is wrong. And things like that have happened before, so it would not surprise me. Plus, I believe that God answers prayer - so that outcome is more than possible. But I am also trying to prepare myself for less than good news but I am having a hard time believing that is the case. I have decided though that I can deal with whatever comes - I am not on this earth for anything less than doing whats expected of me. It is and always has been my job to see that my kids get through whatever they need help with, and should this turn out to be less than perfect circumstances, I am here to help her through it. I do believe in God, I do believe in meant to be's, I do believe in timing, so what will be, is going TO BE. It is up to us, as God's children, to pick up the pieces and carry on, and learn from what has happened. That is the only positive that could be gained in something like this, should be worst be realized. Unfortunately, we don't come into the world knowing anything. The only way we learn is heartache and hardship...and going by that theory, some of us should truly be scholars, shouldn't we?

And another Monday is upon us. Ugh. I wish I could say I felt better this morning. I think I have been running for too long, working too hard, with no downtime. And I do think I won't get better until I get myself to the Dr---I had really thought I might be able to get a cold, and just get over it. Right...so I think I will make an appointment with the regular Dr today, I'm tired of not sleeping.

Oh, just to catch you all up: My mom is not better, but she is cancer free. I am happy to hear that - I was really worried that they would find bone cancer, she sure has had specific pain for a long time, and that was really the only explanation left. However, she is clean. Great news, except, she is still in awful pain, and now what? They have checked everything, done every test...but no cancer sounded wonderful to me.

The rental house is sold and the closing is this Wednesday. I will be so happy to be rid of it- and the payment. :)

Have a great, great Monday, if that is possible. :)