Saturday---Holy crap, the weeks are just flying by! November is nearly over, Christmas is right on top of us. I want to get the Christmas tree and all the decorations up this weekend, notice how I say "I" want to, and you all know that what I mean is "H" will have to do it, right? I usually LOVE the holidays, and I really do this year also, but not being able to get up and do it myself will be a bit of a problem, I think. H is the worlds best at helping me, every year he helps with all of it, but when faced with doing it all alone, and me sitting and directing...it could be interesting--to say the least. I did bring the whee chair home with me for the weekend, maybe that would help with this job....
I am working today, but from home. I really managed to get alot done yesterday but I was at the garage way too long and I am paying for it this morning. I seem to have hit a plateau with the pain and the worsening of my symptoms, although I don't really see how my legs could get any weaker, but my arms don't seem to be getting any worse than they are already, and they are holding up pretty well. I can generally make it at work until around two, and then I am finished for the day. I can absolutely do no more. Except for the days that I can do nothing at all. Damn, that makes zero sense, does it? Well, anyway, what I am trying to say is that I am getting into some kind of a routine at work, if I can work at all, I can usually work from about 8-2, with the help of the wheelchair. The pain level fluctuates from moderate to off the scale. My arms are beginning to shake with weakness after a full day of work, and I look like an alcoholic needing a drink. I am really, really hoping that the surgery can take all of this away, but I have been doing some reading, and it seems that there are many people in the predicament that I am, and permanently in wheelchairs with cervical myelopathy. Obviously, I want better results. Even something in between would be better. On one hand, the surgeon tells me he can fix it. In the next breath, he says it is about a 50/50 shot. So, we will see. I guess anything would be an improvement. I have decided that whatever the outcome, I will live with it, and do the best I can. I am not giving up or giving in. But surely you all knew I wouldn't. :)
I am going to have a good Saturday--and I want all of you to do the same.
ps...good heavens, i just noticed that i wrote "whee chair" in this post and it cracked me up. Lord, it's really far from that...but I'm going to leave it, it does make one's mind think of waaay funner things than it really is. LOL