Sad eyes...turn the other way

I have been awake most of this night---the pain in my legs and back is intolerable. I have taken at least one of everything I have that should help, but not this time. I suppose my walking/running/scrubbing/ schedule has to be modified somewhat, and I wish I could tell you all just how much that pisses me off. So, here i sit, just after three am, do you know where your kids are? :) Ugh.

No ottoman or other end table yesterday, I just knew that was too good to be true. The store called - it will now be next Wednesday. Grrrr.... I did however, get my two new bar stools yesterday, from Tarjay, no less...they are nice looking, functional and sturdy enough to last a few years...I am loving the way my place looks. Every time I buy something for the apartment, it makes me see that we need something else...and every time Mark is forced to carry or move or haul something out of here, he says to me "now this is all, right? We have everything we need now?" LOL yes...until I find the next thing. I know he is worried about his own back, not to mention the money side of things...yes, that is going to become a problem soon...so I had better back off for a bit. Mostly what I need now are just small items...a print or a picture or two for over the breakfast bar, a clock for the LR wall...(yes trav, I'm taking your advice and getting a clock, but finding the right one will take time...) and other small, decorative things. Well---and a desk for my office, I am now using a table and it works okay, but soon I will have to have a desk. Mostly, I am just trying to avoid the hassle of buying another item that has to be hauled all the way up here----Mark, of course---and then put together. And a computer desk that will fit in the space that I now have for one will be one of those that has to be put together. I really don't feel like listening to Mark swear for an afternoon right now, so I have put that purchase off.

And the tv...I for got about the tv. Ugh. This television was three years old in April. Right after we got it, the main tube went out, so luckily it was still under warranty. They came and took it away, and three long weeks later, it came back, repaired. Now keep in mind that it was only a couple of months old at that time...It is a 46" HD RCA stand alone set. I believe it cost about $1800---not a huge amount for a television, but nothing to sneeze at, at least for us. Now, it won't turn on. I mean it will not come on...and once it does, it doesn't want to turn off. The repairman was here about three weeks ago, THREE times, and couldn't figure out what the problem was. He said he had to order parts...and to call him in two - three weeks if we didn't hear from him first. (We have called, but so far, no luck, btw) So far, it has cost just over a hundred dollars. Once fixed, (and he isn't even sure that the part he ordered is really the problem) it will be another $350-$400. I asked how we could use in in the meantime, and he told us not to turn it off. So, this tv has been on for almost a month. How can that be good for it? When we aren't using it, I turn it to the XM channels so that the screen saver comes on...but tell me, isn't that ultimately going to burn it up? And is it smart to put that much more money into it? And if we buy another, what the hell will we do with this one? It cannot be used unless repaired, and we can't sell it or even give it away until it's fixed...ugh. I wish I knew if it would continue to work once fixed...It seems that everything we buy these days has issues and it frustrates me to no end. We need a television. That's all Mark and I do in our old age...watch a few shows that interest us, and recently, movies that we rent. There are two other sets in this house, but they are pretty small and we have been spoiled. I would love to have one that will hang on the wall---this room is set up for just that, but financially right now, it's best to wait. On the other hand, (we have warts...lol) I do not want to throw any more good money after bad. ACK!

So today, the plan was to get down to the house in the southern regions of this fine state and do a a little clean up and paint work...but not today. I can hardly walk this morning, and that's not a joke. I suppose this is just a reaction to all of my recent activity but when this happens, it scares the crap out of me. So, Mark will have to head there once again on his own - well with the dog--so that I can truly have a day "off" without having to take her out, bring her in, take her out, bring her in...and I can hope that by Monday I can go and help him. I feel sorry for that man sometimes, everything seems to fall on his shoulders. We SO much need to sell that house...it is costing us right at a thousand a month...just to make the payments and pay the few utilities or the minimums for them...ugh. The housing market now is so bad, but I still feel confident that someone will want to raise their family there, it's a great house for kids and dogs and cats and love.

All of my kiddos are going to camp at the lake this weekend, I am SO jealous. They even have the use of a boat...the little turds. It has been years since I was able to set my butt on a boat, and if there ever was a most Godly time in my life, it was on the bow of our little speed boat back in the nineties, at sunset, with the wind in my face and the evidence of God all around...there has never ever been a more peaceful moment or more wondrous and thankful feeling in my entire life. But for my kids, this weekend, I just wish them safety and fun.

I hope that all of you have a great, long weekend. I hope that each of you spend each moment doing something wonderful. Happy Labor day weekend, y'all. :)