I apologize for my absence for the past week and a day or two, being away has helped me. I have regained a bit of perspective that I had lost for the past while. New or renewed perspective is always a good thing. I also realized how many read my blog---I have always known about my friends and family of course, (they are the reason I write here, after all), but now I have a good idea about my stalkers, and stalkers are always welcome here, but I frankly am surprised at the number of them I have that know me IRL. You know how that is, you try and think...did I offend any of them at any time? When you worry about that, it really is time to shut it all down. I started writing here for me, almost two years ago...when no one read it but me...and while blogging alone is okay, it's not nearly as fun as the blogging community that I have found and grown to love. However, and you all know what I am going to say next, don't you---now, I feel I have to censor everything I write. Sometimes I am not too kind, or perhaps I don't want to be...but I cannot bring myself to say things that I know will be repeated to the wrong party or even read by the wrong party in the first place. Hurt feelings are never anything I enjoy, whether they are my feelings, or me hurting someone else. Yes, I do know the rule about not saying anything at all if I have nothing GOOD to say, but then I feel compelled to ask myself why I have this blog in the first place. So, I don't know what to do. I know that many of you have handled this problem by writing by invitation only. I am not sure that's for me. I have discovered in the past two years that it's totally impossible to be anonymous. We all think we can, we think we can outsmart everyone, and maybe many of you do, but I don't like the idea of hiding...and I know I am making this sound as though I am hiding something really bad from everyone, and that is not the case at all. It's merely that sometimes I want to speak my mind and frankly, I cannot. So, I will wrestle with this problem for a bit and get back to you all on it, okay?
In the meantime...many, many things happening here.
New furniture delivered this Friday---I am so looking forward to having it. Mark is not, however, you all should see the long face, he tells me because we have to move everything once again, all around this apartment...to make things work. I am not so sure that's the reason...but he was all for the purchase, so beats me.
Bill is out of the hospital temporarily---I don't think I told you all the original problem but it is his heart. He needs a FIVE bypass operation, but they cannot do it until his head heals. He did such damage to his brain that giving him the required blood thinners for the operation would cause his brain to bleed again, and perhaps kill him. So, he has to wait about six weeks for the surgery. In the meantime, he has been fitted with some kind of outer defibrillation vest, very expensive, very high-tech, that he will not wear. He has been warned that without it, he may well die. He is not allowed to lift anything heavier than a tv remote...and that of course caused him to quip "well what will I do when I have to pee, then?" Typical Bill. Please say a prayer that he hangs on until he can have the operation and that after he feels better than new...K?
I am after all, going back into the insurance business, assuming the company will have me, and I won't know for a couple of weeks, after all the background checks and such. Since there is nothing in my background that would keep them from hiring me, in my mind, it's pretty much a done deal. I probably won't get started until mid September or so, but that's okay, since I have been working pretty regularly at the ICS---which we will be closing for the season in a few days.
I spent a good portion of the day yesterday, pinning down our vacation plans. I don't know if I told you all or not, but I promised Miss Stephanie--my youngest's gf---a trip to Las Vegas for her birthday as soon as she turned 21. Well, that is happening the middle of next month - and some time ago, we decided to include the rest of the family---so all of us--Me, Mark, Janelle and Nick, Craig, Jordy and Steph and Mark's best friend will all head to Vegas the first full week of October. It will be a wonderful time. Soul and Soul-man are supposed to join us there, too. Doesn't that sound great? I do not fly unless I'm forced, and even then, not so much. So Mark and I and his best friend will drive --- and I made plane reservations for the rest of them yesterday. Teehee...there is a method to my madness...now I do not have to spend two full days of driving with all my kiddos, fighting, complaining, bitching, moaning...you see, none of them have really grown up. And it makes sense for all of them, it saves them so much time, work-wise. Mark and I have always enjoyed the drive, for us, it's as much fun as the destination. I had to swallow really hard when I made the plane reservations and the hotel reservations---four rooms, three nights, ugh...the dollar amounts hurt. I can spend money like no one...right from the chair here at my desk. All I can say is, they had all better have a really, REALLY good time.
So that's enough for now. I hope I haven't ran any of you off in my absence. Have a great, GREAT day.