Sunday, February 17, 2008

Nothing endures but change

BLIZZARD WARNING. Ice, then significant snowfall, 5-8 inches possible, along with winds of up to 50 miles a hour. Loss of electrical power possible. Do not travel. If you must, have a survival kit with you. If you get stranded, stay with your vehicle. Just freakin' peachy.

A better night last night, I slept as well as I ever can. It's amazing how much a little sleep can help, eh?

The Daytona 500 today. YES! And the racing season begins...Oh how I love my NASCAR.

The most adorable baby was in the dealership with his parents yesterday. I knew this was bound to happen, and I was NOT looking forward to it. I was surprised at all the feelings I had, because my concern was of course, for Janelle, as she was working the F and I office for me yesterday. He was the kind of baby that you can't help but fall in love with, all smiles and eyes. When I saw him, my heart leapt into my throat and all the emotions of the past weeks came crushing in on me. I had to go to the back to cry - and I was surprised at the strength of my own feelings. Of course, it was only worse for Janelle, although I have to admit she managed to make it through all the paperwork of selling the young family the car before she came to me to cry. It was a necessary moment for the both of us, and frankly - if it had to happen, I am glad it happened with that kind of "I can't help but love you baby" and not with a "please do something to shut that kid up" kind of baby, although that might have been easier to handle, because when you want to drop kick a baby's parents then you aren't focusing on sadness. So anyway, that showdown is now over, and we both made it. That prompted a little conversation, and I am proud of my daughter for getting better. She still cries, at times she doesn't even know she is going to, but it comes and goes quickly, and then she returns to the reality of all of it, and knows that someday....SOMEDAY.

Have a really good Sunday. If you aren't snowed in where you are, think of me when you leave your house today. Keep smiling. :)


Mary said...

I remember the blizzard warnings and power outages from when I lived in the mountains. Did you know that with a corning ware bowl and a candle you can cook eggs? It takes a while but it can be done.

I'm glad to hear "the first step" is behind both of you. Sounds like you handled it well.

Enjoy race day.

Cheryl said...

Surviving yesterday's situation will hopefully make the next time easier. You know time will make all the difference.

This has been one of our mildest winters in years. I hope your power stays on. You don't want to miss that race.


I'm glad we're sharing this blizzard, although I'm so over it all!

For your first time around a baby, at least it happened with you both was probably extremely painful, and I'm glad that the both of you had each other to hold afterwards.
Cheryl is right, time will make all the difference!

Happy Sunday,

SOUL: said...

ya know-- looking at your tags below this post-- (avoidant much)?
your daughter IS freakin awesome --- and so are YOU.

i also knew that day would come-- i am just really glad that the two of you were together when i t happened. ya know?
that makes it .. maybe not better-- but different. i'm
sorry it had to happen in a situation that neither of you could really get away from, as fast as you surely wanted to. but -- it happened, and yes.. you made it. and next time-- you will make it again. and again.

you're doin good. it doesn't feel that way-- but you are. both of you.


ac said...

It's helpful to healing to get that 'first' out of the way. Hopefully it will get a little easier for you both.

I hope you don't lose your power so you can get your NASCAR groove on.

Have a great Sunday! ac

Summer said...

I still cry sometimes. It was 1988.

Golden To Silver Val said...

I lost mine in 1982 and still have thoughts of "what ifs" creep into my mind now and then. I don't think its anything that you ever get over, you just learn to adapt. Time heals all wounds, they say...but as our dear Soul says...the scars are still there.
As for this weather; ENOUGH already. I am sooooo ready for spring. Its 38 and pouring rain here now...maybe it will be too warm for us to get more snow....I hope, I hope, I hope.

abbagirl74 said...

No snow here. Thank goodness. I don't know how much more I can take.

Portia said...

Well, I'm not leaving the house, but I'm thinking of you and thanks to you, I'm more grateful than ever for our mild winter.
I agree that the baby encounter was bound to happen, and while it brings up many emotions, it is nice that you were both there together.
I hope it's a good Sunday:)

Gypsy said...

Like everyone else has said, I'm glad that you and Janelle were together for that first time.

Stay safe Jamie with that wild weather approaching. It's going to be about 105 degrees here today, as if I don't feel sick

Summer said...

Are you snowed in tonight?