February 7th 2008. Happy birthday to my child - my beautiful daughter, Janelle. She is now thirty minus two. Her words-not mine. I know the events of late are making her feel like this birthday is something to be ignored, but how can I do that? She is my baby. There won't be much partying done today, lunch out, perhaps a cake fairy will bring one in to the job today...but this weekend, it's another trip to the Red Lobster, (oh darn), with a friend or two of hers (and mine) along with the family. I have nothing to give to her gift-wise, she already has purchased her plane ticket south and that is from me. This is going to be her year though, just wait and see. It can only go up from here...the best is yet to come.
Life in the real world is getting me down - and I'm not referring to the obvious here, I don't mean the events of the past few weeks. I am talking about the WEATHER. The weather. The stupid winter from hell, that will not let up. To quote a blogging friend of mine that lives one state over to the west: "It will not quit fucking snowing." I really, really, REALLY have had it with the weather this year. I know, it's weather. It's only the weather. I hate to listen to old people talk about the damned weather. I guess I am getting old - because I cannot have a conversation recently, where the weather does not come up. I hear myself chiming right in...on a subject that is really the most boring, ridiculous thing ever to discuss. But it won't stop. fucking. snowing. Iowa is known for being one of the most extreme weather states-if you don't like the weather here, wait an hour or two, it will change. But give me a break! I seriously cannot take much more. Currently, if CrazyDog wants to walk beyond the shoveled area that is available to her, she has to hop like a rabbit. Front legs, back legs, front legs, back legs...because the snow is taller than she is. I cannot have a clean floor anywhere in my house - and it isn't because I don't try. I think this may be the one that really does do me in. It is affecting everyone's mood, everyone's life....oh hell, I cannot take much more. I think a visit to a place that is warm in the VERY near future may be on my agenda. I have got to have a break. HAVE TO. Are you listening husband? Okay, so enough of that...
It looks like the sale of the business that I work for will take place in March. So, that will probably mean that I will be unemployed by the end of March. That thought both excites and terrifies me. I have got to get busy with the task of finding something else, very soon. As much as I would like to take a break from working, it's not really too realistic to think that I can. The bills - you know. Got to bring in the money, so I can keep everyone happy...mostly the creditors. I have really tried to imagine my life without that place, and it's impossible. I have had every part of my world wrapped around that car dealership for so long, that I am completely unable to even imagine any other way. I keep telling myself that the right thing will present itself...and it may. With my help, of course. I am still somewhat buried on my current job, and it takes all I have to manage that. I have no idea how I will ever have the strength to look for something else. The ice cream store is due to open in one month. The future of that place is rather uncertain, too. I have no idea who will be running that show this year, but I'm sure that I will have to have a hand in it, and the idea of that makes me want to cry. I suppose it will all work out, but for a person like me, who needs their whole life mapped out in front of them, this is torture.
And it's tax time once again. Oh how I love the IRS. They take half my pay, and then want more in April. I think I should be able to claim my adult children...I still pay out the nose for them, why not? And CrazyDog. And kitty #1 and #2. They all cost a fortune. I want social security numbers for them---do you think that would work? I need to get busy with the taxes, I do them for so many...myself, all my kids including GF, owners girlfriend at work, an employee here or there...help!
This will be a long day for me...we are open from eight to eight. I am not looking forward to it, for some reason, I am not feeling all that great. I think I am just tired, but pain is becoming my friend once again...
I hope that you have a good, good Thursday. If you are living somewhere where it isn't cold and doesn't snow, get outside, for me. :)
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