So, I have missed you guys. Alot. But what is happening has not been happening to me, and it wasn't my business to tell. But it does affect everything about me, as does everything about my kids---and grand kids, as the case may be. But since this is now here, you can read what I'm talking about. Go ahead, I'll wait.
So, as you can see - we don't know what's happening now. I too, am paralyzed with fear that she will lose the baby, and yet---I don't want her to save it now, only to lose it later, or to have it when there is no hope of any kind of a normal or happy life for the child. This has been a heartbreaking week for me, to watch the heart of my daughter break, and not really be able to help. I didn't want to tell you all about it until she felt ready to talk---and while I know you all have great advice and perspective, I really just wanted her to deal with it on her own, in her own way. Please understand. And I also know that many, many women find themselves in this position...but this is new to me, and certainly to her. It only takes a second of knowing there is a baby for a lifetime of heartache if you lose it.
But I have missed you all, and I will let you know how it's all going. Don't worry about me, this too--shall not kill me. :)