Monday, December 03, 2007

Time warp

I can't be Monday again, wasn't it just Friday? I have not left this house since I arrived home on Friday, and mostly what I have done since then is sleep. That would be why I think it cannot be Monday again---I really don't know if I can continue to take all the excitement of my life. :)

It was decided yesterday that we are not going to have all the Christmas hurrah in our house this year. It is too much for one person, and I am not willing to just have a tree, H is not capable and does not have the time to do it all, and time is passing in such a strange way for me that is seems like such a huge effort for him, with really no reason for it. We will still do all the gifts that we do, or I will try to, but I am just unable to manage the tree and decorations. I have box after box of things that are put out, and yes, I know that they ALL don't have to be put out, but it's just simpler to leave it this way. I don't know what my GROWN kids will have to say about that, but I figure if they have a problem with it, they can come home and do it, and then return and put it all away. Enough said.

H took CrazyDog to her annual vet visit on Saturday, and she is of course, doing just fine. He told the vet of her increasing craziness, no one being able to relax, she is constantly barking at the dark stairway--at literally nothing, constant pawing at me for something but when offered the treats, or to go out, will take none of it, and the vet put her on doggie xanax. Of course, it's not really the name of it, but it is a tranquilizer for dogs that I looked up. She is like me and can never take the prescribed dose of anything, so we cut it in half and it seems to be helping. I was hoping that we would be able to actually cook and leave her in the house while she was taking them, but that was not the case. (I guess I should tell you all that we have never been able to do ANYTHING in the kitchen without her going into a complete meltdown...cooking is terrifying to her, if I turn on the oven, she goes berserk, I have never been able to run the dishwasher with her inside, the garbage disposal has her climbing the walls... And I know for a fact that she has never been abused in any kind of way, I bought her for H in 1995 before she was old enough to bring home...so she has never lived with anyone else, other than the breeder, and she was tiny then. See, I don't just call her CrazyDog for fun...) But anyway, I am hoping that she can be a little happier with the help of these pills because as bad as these problems are for us, I can only imagine how hard it is for her to cope in whatever world she is in. :)

I am hoping for a somewhat productive day today. Heaven knows I have tons to do, and little time that I can actually be upright to do it. I wish that for all you today, too. Later.

15 comments:

Summer said...

Happy Monday!
Lordy. Is it Monday again?

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SOUL: said...

i cracked up allll the way thru the crazy dog -tale. my gawd. she sounds like my midnight. i had no idea they had doggy xanax too. holy crap, what will they think of next?
you know, midnight just cries all the time lately--- at everything. is it pain? nerves? sadness? confusion? i know she can't see.. almost anything anymore... could that be why? poor little mental-night.
anyhow. good luck to crazydog---and i hope YOU have a good day today.
OXXX

ps.... it's ok to not do the tree thing... you could always get one of those little 12 inch pre lit-pre decorated plug in ones--- we have done that before---and hung stockings---- it really isn't the size of the tree--- it's all about about being together. and happy. you know that. (we had a tiny tree cuz we had a giant dog--chunky---remember him?---NO WAY could we have a tree with that dog. it wouldn't have lasted a day with that klutz in the house. just do what you and H can manage--- the rest will fall into place. it really will.
latah---- (super chicken)
OX

abbagirl74 said...

Have a wonderful day Jamie!

CRUSTYBEEF said...

poor Crazydog!
Don't worry about the woofie valiums..they should work (I had a cat that was diagnosed with depression and anxiety that had something similiar..

poor crazydog..maybe a bit noisy for the puppy when he was coming into the world...
he found a perfect home that's for sure!!

You're doing the right thing with your decision for decorations. After all it is only materials, not the essence of the season..not what it's about..and I LOVE your idea about having the kids decorate if they really want the festive spirit. The spirit will be festive when surgery is over for you, and they will be grateful that their mom is doing okay!! :)
Always,
Crusty~

Josie Two Shoes said...

Ahhh, that doggy name is more appropriate than I knew! :-) I do hope the meds work for him, it has to be stressful for both you and him for everything to upset him so much. Barking at the dark stairway, huh? Maybe you have ghosts in this house too! :-)

I think you are very wise on your decision with Christmas decorating. Since the kids don't live at home now, they can decorate THEIR places to their heart's content, or come home and do yours (yes, AND put it away) if it really bothers them. H does have plenty on his plate and you simply can't, and they are all old enough (and I'm sure caring enough) to see and understand that. Next year you can resume those traditions. For this year, keep it simple. Hang a pretty wreath on the door and call it good! Sending you positive thoughts for your day, and at least a few hours of strength so you'll feel like you made a dent in Monday. Love you, Jamie!

Golden To Silver Val said...

Sigh ~ isn't that just like 'us moms'. We feel guilty over everything. Yep, I agree with everyone else and you too...keep the decorations at a low minimum. Next year will be better.
Yikes! I was thinking what Josie said...sometimes dogs can see or 'feel' spirits in the house...hmmmm, I wonder. In the meantime, maybe she'll be happier on the doggy xanax. I used to give it to my shepherd around July 4th because she SO hated the fireworks.
Our weather here has turned bitter...we have sustained winds of 35 mph today, gusting to 50, making the wind chill 14. I knew these extra layers of fat on me were good for something!! I hope your day is good, but mostly I hope you laugh today. Hugs.

Beth said...

girl, you do hate you some Monday's!!!! From now on, just skip 'em....stay in bed till Tuesday!!

CCC said...

doggie xanax?? now I've heard everything! you're such a good mama to her though. I hope she finds some peace too. I wonder what would happen if a human took one?? not that I'm volunteering ;) lololol

Amanda said...

Good thought about the decorations. Hope CD will feel better!

Stepping Over the Junk said...

if it werent for my kids, I would just cancel christmas!

JYankee said...

crazy dog is really crazy??? i hope she does well with doggy xanax. Mondays..yes..they swing around rather quickly dont they?

ac said...

With all you are going through you sure do keep your spirits up! Kudos to you for being able to do that.

Cheryl said...

Well, it's Tuesday now. I'm a bit behind. I say don't stress about the decorations. Like you said, if the kids want it, they can do it. I hope the pills help with your doggy. You must love him a lot cause that stuff would drive me crazy.

desert dirt diva said...

Hi, well it sounds hm ok let me start this again, i have just recently started reading your blog.. and what kinds of medical problems do u have.. and after you have your operation will it help, and what kind of operation are you having .. and really if its nun of my buss. just tell me. know offense will be taken... I hope all goes wel with you, really i do..it sounds like it is really hard on you , but then again you don't need someone like me whom you don't really know to remind you of this.. well take care...