Friday, December 28, 2007

Hard Candy Christmas

Another Friday rolls around. This week is so messed up, I haven't known what day it is at all. And that is just as well...can we say grouchy? How about crabby, pissy, irate, assy, difficult, moody, just plain old no-fun-to-be-around? That would be me... I never act this way, what the hell is my problem? I am so damned tired of feeling like hell, and I am tired of sleeping poorly, whether it's due to pain or this damned neck brace- (Summer, I know I have to wear it another week until I see the Dr, after that, is any one's guess,) - and yes, I know I am now being whiney and you all can add that to my list, and I do apologize, but people, I have had just about enough. I haven't been able to drive since October. I haven't been out of this house for days and days unless it's to go to work, and when I do, I pay with another day in for punishment. If I choose to do anything then there is a price involved. I pay with another day of pain. My husband is so neglected it isn't funny, and believe me, I'm not one of those sickeningly attentive wives, so if I say he's neglected, you can believe it. He has had to do every damned thing around here forever, and now, he even has to take the long hours for me at my job, he was stuck there last night until eight. No, he is not complaining, but these things do make me feel bad. Okay, sorry--I'm finished now, and again, I do apologize. Sometimes you just gotta get it out...to sum it all up, I guess I am surprised at how long this is taking, and how bad I still feel. That's all.

And now, after that little tirade, I don't even know what to say...it's almost like after a fight with a friend or your significant other, you are left kind of humming to yourself, or whistling...

And so how's the weather? How's the wife and kids? How about those Cubs?

It's freaking snowing again...another wonderful subject near and dear to my heart. We are under another warning, up to eight more inches....oh how I love Iowa in the winter....

Another year is almost upon us. I will be happy to see it arrive...In fact, 2007 can just get the hell out of here, for me and most every one I know. I don't remember a time when the same year was so bad for so many. Is it the same for all of you? What are you all doing for New Year's Eve this year? Any plans? H and I are planning to go to our favorite casino, but I honestly don't think that I will be feeling up to it...I really, really would like to go. I will have to wait and see how I am doing on Monday. I think I will quit my complaining now..I hope you all have great Friday's!

9 comments:

Gypsy said...

You know what Jamie? I know exactly how you feel in a way. I am quite often in bed for a few hours in the afternoon because my body just cannot cope with the heat. My husband comes home from work after working 11 hours and does the cooking, gets the school lunches ready AND then does the dishes. He never ever complains but that just makes me feel even more guilty and useless.

The thing is, he loves me, just as H loves you. For better for worse, in sickness and in health. Some spouses take those vows very seriously and I guess you and I are two of the luckiest women alive. Does that make you feel any better?

No-one, including your friends, expects you to be a ray of sunshine. Good grief, you are in constant terrible pain.....Try to cut yourself some slack my friend. I'm sure H knows that if you could do things for yourself you would. End of sermon now. I just feel your frustration and I empathise. Now you just have to be kinder to yourself. You're a good person and you have the right to whinge and complain as much as you want. That's what friends are for. My post is finished....sorry about that.

JYankee said...

ha you and gypsy! dont ever feel bad about whining..you have every right to..you JUST had surgery for gawd sakes... do not be so HARD on yourself.. really..one day we'll all look back at this and wonder how it went by so quickly... well.. here's to a BETTER 2008! really...

Summer said...

Whine. Bitch. Complain. Do it all. If it helps you to feel better DO IT. I am so sorry that you're in pain and so happy that you have a wonderful dear husband. I should tell you about my DH, how he would react in this situation, it might give you a little chuckle. Take your mind off your pain for a minute.

And the snow...I'm pretty sure I would have gone insane by now.

Do you have to work today?

SOUL: said...

soooo.... ummm, well, how bout those cowboys eh?

and you are right-- '07 really has been a shitty year for many out here.. and many "out there" too. it has definitely
been a roller coaster ride for a lot of us.

but ya know what? YOU get the award. whatever award that may be. do they have a purple heart for bloggers??? cuz if they do, i would say that you have earned it.
you have walked through fire, and come out on the other side carrying friends on your back with you. you need to realize that.

no one said life would be easy. and for whatever reason, it seems that the good people have it the worst ... and the crappy people seem to just skate through unscathed. i don't know why that is. but apparently the harder our lessons... the better we become for it. like Job (in the bible) ya think? just look what he had to go through. his story has pulled me through many a fire. and so has yours.
i don't know where i'm goin with this, so i shall shut my face now.
i do hope you have a good day today... and i really really really hope that you will feel good enough to go out on New Years Eve. it would be soooo good for you.
ummm... are you up for another challenge perhaps? :)) (evil grin)

hang in there jamie. just be easy on yourself, you will feel better soon. k?

i love you my friend...
OX

SOUL: said...

hmmm... funny that i got tagged..and now you did too! hah
go see my post.
why do they say tagged anyhow--it's more like "nagged"...
but anyhow...
ore vuas
:))

Amanda said...

(((((((Jamie)))))))

:)

Cheryl said...

I'd agree...not a good year for you. And it's fine to complain...you have valid reasons. Say what you will, especially if it helps.

Maria said...

2007 sucked the big one for most of us. Let's give it a good sharp kick (or you should only gently tap it, J...don't hurt yourself even more...) and let 2008 get itself in here. The sooner the better.

Golden To Silver Val said...

Actually it seems like the last 2 or 3 years have been crappy. I am really hoping that 2008 brings all of us what will make us happy. Patience, Jamie...you haven't given it time to heal. It may take a couple months kiddo...just one step at a time, but you'll get there. With your drive and determination and all the people who love you....how can you fail? You simply can NOT and will NOT. Sending you a big hug. Bless you ~ Val