Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Howdy Doody

Okay, so it is now Tuesday, and a Tuesday has to be better, doesn't it?

I would like to tell you all that I am in a better frame of mind today, but that would be lying because I'm not. This whole situation seems bizarre to me since I have zero pain in my neck, and all this bullshit surgery will not do one thing for all the pain that i am in, that will have to be done with another surgery at another time, since the pain in my back and legs is coming from the lower discs. So, all that will be accomplished is the hope of being able to walk, and knowing when I have to pee, and hopefully not longer seeing double, and yes, all of those things are HUGE, but there is only a chance that this will correct that, as the length of time it has taken the doctors to come to this decision has greatly lessened the chances of this working. Yes, I am probably repeating myself, but I wanted you all to understand my whining.I feel like I am between the proverbial rock and hard place. And today, I am just pissy. And in pain because I laid in the fricking MRI tube long once again, and hardly able to get around...but that is standard operating procedure these days. And I am at work, and in no mood to be here...lucky, lucky folks that work for me.....lol.

Have a good day.


Beth said...

ahh Jaime...I wish you felt better, and I wish there was something I could do for you! Hang in there girl.


I'm sorry that it's been so rough..I can't imagine all that you've had to deal with as of lately!! But, look at it this way, being stuck between a rock and a hard place, well, you've got something to hit when you're really upset... :)
Crusty~ Maybe hitting the rock with your frustration with all the pain you're having will help you move that rock towards some good that you will get as you do deserve!!! :)

Andrew said...

Jamie!!! ((hugz))

It seems the crap that affects us all is going around. My panic attakcs. You. Soul. Everyone is feeling bad. I want only the best for my blogging friends and hope you feel better soon! Hang in there.

Josie Two Shoes said...

I can imagine how frustrating it is to have answers that are so intangible. We can only hope and pray that the surgery will keep you walking and peeing "on signal"! :-) One step at a time dear Jamie, one day at a time. Is there a reason you wanted to wait a month for this surgery? How long after this one could they do the other one to help with pain? We're all gonna be praying for you every step of the way. LOL at the folks in your workplace, if they don't understand why you aren't feeling very cheerful, it is THEIR problem!

SOUL: said...

i am hoping you aren't pullin a twelve hour day today and that you are headin toward the time clock soon.

also, i am curious if you strangled any of your employees yet???

i hope you stayed off your feet and will be able to rest tonight and feel better tomorrow.

i really hate all of this for you.


Summer said...

Hey. Soul and I will come strangle your employees for you. You can sit back and rest.

That's what friends are for.

SOUL: said...


i am in the perfect mood for things such as that...let's go get em.
pull up a chair jamie!!!
enjoy the show

Pen and the Sword said...

Sorry I have MIA lately, hon. Been catching up. I hope that you will feel better soon. You are always in my thoughts.

Amanda said...

My hopes are with you Jamie! Wishing you a cool Wednesday.

SOUL: said...

well.. it is humpday. if that's any consolation at all???
if not, well... i don't know.
i the "soul words of wisdom well " is running dry here.

so all i got is take it easy on yourself. and try to keep your spirits up eh?

when the body is down, ya gotta try to stay up emotionally, or you'll be screwed. k?

Anonymous said...

hmm the summer and soul show??? strangulation of the employees? COOL! Im in ....i'd watch..and pay money to watch! LOL.. dont worry bout the pity party..if i were you..i'd be doing alot more than just having a pity party.. (((((hugs)))))

Maria said...

Such a rough road here. I can't help thinking that somewhere around the bend, things are going to be better. I don't mean to sound all false cheery, but it can only go up, yes?

Gypsy said...

Be as pissy as you want...God knows you have good reason to be. Surgery is a scary prospect at the best of times but when you know it's not even going to reduce your pain level any, it must feel so pointless.