It is so wonderful to hobble to my computer this afternoon and find that i have had several stop by and read what I have to say. Particularly on a day as bad as this one has been. I have even had a couple of new folks stop in, isn't our blogging circle a wonderful thing? Some days, it seems to be the only thing that can make me smile. Today is one of those days. I have been home, on my sofa all day long. I can now put a little weight on my leg, but i have the worst shooting pains in the upper front of my thigh when i do, they take my breath. Yes, I really do know that the dr's have to figure out what the problem is, but i promise you that if i saw one today, they would still know nothing. I have been down this road repeatedly over the years, and I know the routine. I am beginning to think that perhaps there is a bad disc or two in my back, although the pain is altogether different than the last time. At least if that is the case, it can (hopefully) be fixed. Otherwise, I am seriously beginning to think that there is no way I can carry on with my regular life. The only other time that the pain became THIS bad that was the problem. And it was diagnosed on a Thursday, I was in surgery on a Friday, and back to work on Monday. Seriously. Of course, I was only thirty-four at the time and in perfect physical shape, but it was easy. Painful, but easy. I am now praying for such a fix.
I have laid all day worrying about my job---no, i really don't believe I will be fired, first of all, no one on this planet would want to do all that i have to do every day. But I am really getting behind, and I know of no one that can be of any help. By the time i try and explain WHAT to do, i can do it myself. I am not pulling my weight, and I know that owner must be getting tired of it. I know I would be, I know what it's like to have an employee that isn't doing what needs done. And I don't operate that way. But, right now, all I can do is what i am doing.
I am looking forward to a better and more mobile tomorrow. It has to be. Thanks to all of you for listening. Out.