Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Pathetic

It is Tuesday. I completely missed Monday. It is gone. I can walk a little. I am not happy today, although I should be, as I can get of the blasted sofa today. I dreamed I was riding my bike, and I was sad when I woke up and I hadn't been riding. Stupid? Yes. But I am wondering if those days are over. Yes, I know I am having a little pity party just for me, but dammit. DAMMIT. I look at so many that take so fucking much for granted. And yet, they cannot tell me why I can't do something so freakin' simple as WALK some days. DAMMIT.

Okay, I'm over it. I am off to my job, where I am defeated before i even begin. Well, maybe I am not over it yet. That sounded pretty pathetic, too. Perhaps I had better sign off until I can blog like a "good little girl". Later.

13 comments:

abbagirl74 said...

Just do the best that you can. If people at work can't accept that, well, you know what to tell them. Keep your head up. Hope today is a better day for you.

Amanda said...

Oh, Jamie... I know just what you mean. Wishing you the best possible day.

JYankee said...

hoping the best for your tuesday...

Portia said...

sending love your way!!!

and this blog is for WHATEVER you have got to say, no matter what you think it sounds like. you are part of my daily blog dose and i miss you terribly on the weekends!

wishing you the best:)

Josie Two Shoes said...

Mornin' Sweet Jamie! You don't have to worry about blogging like a "good girl" here. We'd all be mighty uncomfortable around you if you started walking around in a halo! The reality of your life is - it hurts! And we do wanna know when it feels like that. I am grateful that you were able to hobble off to work this morning. I know it would drive you crazy to be home for another day. I cried for you about the bicycle dream, but don't you dare give up hope yet, promise?!! Remember - we are SURVIVORS!! (((hugs))), Josie

SOUL: said...

hi jamie.. i'm late gettin around blogland a little bit today.
got up early, then ran around for a while after takin the kids to school. soo. now i am beat. i came home to eat somethin and make phone calls, and once i ate, i realized i am outta damn gas.
lovely.
guess i will take care of what i can do from home, and hope for the best later on or tomorrow.
that damn heat really got to us yesterday. even soulman was illin this morning.

so anyhow... it's okay to rant once in a while, you know that. we don't see it as a pity party. you have genuine bitches to vent. and we are hear to listen. k?
i hope you do have a decent day.
ttyl

Beth said...

Since Monday is gone...I hope Your Tuesday is a good one...you so deserve AND need one!

Stepping Over the Junk said...

It's okay to have a pity party but then important to set a deadline and move on! Believe me, I know what you mean, in feeling like you should be happy for getting off the sofa, but you arent feeling it. Hang in there!

Summer said...

If you want to have a pity party invite me! I'm sorry you're having so much pain. I understand totally.

I hope your Wednesday is better.

Cheryl said...

Someday are the pits, and today sounded like one of them. At least you can walk a little. That was better than yesterday but it probably didn't cheer you up. Sorry. You can only hope that tomorrow is a little better.

CCC said...

:::sending you positive vibes:::
have you had some chocolate lately ;)

SOUL: said...

where are you? it's awful late to have not "seen" you yet.
hope you are ok!

Amanda said...

Ditto Soul. Worried yet hoping you are doing really, really well today Jamie.