Because at least for the time being, I cannot walk and am sitting here at my computer fuming...I may as well work on my "assignment" from Josie.....and there is nothing wrong with my fingers at the moment, they work---well, other then the fact that my fingernails are waaay too long. So, onward:
3. You and I have travelled some rough roads in our adult lives, seeming to have learn most things the hard way. Life doesn't come with an "undo" button, but if it did, what one moment in time (other than the one you wrote about regarding your daughter) would you go back and handle differently?
I had to think about this one for quite some time, I am afraid. Partly because there were several things I would have chosen to do differently. In the end however, the reason I "chose" this "mistake" was that I can still see NO good that came out of the decisions made at that time. I also don't feel that there was any REAL harm done to anyone other than me, but had I not made this choice, my life would have been infinitely easier and better.
Immediately following the separation from my first husband, my kids father, I started "seeing" my boss. Yes, I am smarter than that. He was seventeen years older than me, and quite a goofball. I was a car salesman/finance manager and he was the owner...or car dealer. I didn't think he was an idiot then, and I really did learn alot from him business wise, but good heavens, he set me back in life light years. Seriously. He repeatedly broke my heart. Looking back, it is hard for me to understand that I cared about him to the extent that I did. I have NO idea why I did. Seriously, he was goofy. But there was something in him that brought out the mother in me. He drank. Never around me, but he drank alot. So I didn't see him alot. And there was another woman in his life that I didn't know about or refused to see at that time....no matter what he did, it was okay. It wasn't the money he had, because, I never saw any. But I just refused to "lose". And I tried to win that situation for more than eighteen months. In fact, he was alot of the reason why I feel so responsible for the mess my daughter was in that I wrote of previously. All of my attention went to him, or to the lack of him in my life. He hurt me over and over, because I let him. After my daughter and I had our troubles, that was the end of it. I realized that I had been a fool, and there was no more. But when I look back at that part of my life, I cannot believe that i was so stupid. In all of the "situations" of my life, I can look back and see a reason, or at least see some good that came out of the ruins. In this one however, there is none. It was just a stupid, stupid thing on my part, that left me empty for quite awhile. But once I was over it, I was over it.
4. What is your astrological sign? How do you see yourself fitting or not fitting the traits usually associated with this sign?
I am a Pisces. And for the most part, I am a true Pisces. I haven't looked into this for quite a while, so it's hard for me to remember the "traditional" aspects of my sign, but it seems that that one of them is that Pisces are emotional and I used to be very emotional. I am now just old and I try not to let myself get that way to often or at the very least, I don't show it, but that is correct. And talents, and I used to be able to sing very, very well....but not anymore, too many cigarettes, and if you don't use it you lose it, you know. And I am psychic, about a lot of things, and I don't like that part, but I know that is a Pisces trait as well.
I will save the last question for a later post. Now I need to try and decide what the hell I am going to do about today...not that i have much decision to make, I still cannot walk. Dammit. I am just hoping that the strength in that leg comes back in a little while. Have a good day. Later.