There's no place like home...

I'm writing this from my home, my desk, my chair, and my kitty is on my lap. It feels wonderful to be here. When I don't think about all that has to be done today, all that has to get finished before I leave again tomorrow. Then, I wonder where I could be that wouldn't cause such stress. Because I do have many things to finish in the next 24 hours. One of them is my laundry - good heavens, dressing this way causes a lot of fricking laundry. Another thing that I have to do today, is find a place to live. And that means another two hours in the car to the city, and then of course, another two hours driving back. But I also get to see all my kiddos for our Mother's Day celebration, and that will be great. So....

I did survive the week, although at times I wondered if I would. This training is quite different than any other I have been involved in, and I have been in MANY training situations in my life, in one job I had, I was away for training one whole week out of every month...but anyway, I have never been told in TRAINING before that usually some don't make it, that often, some decide that they have made a mistake in choosing the job, or that one of the jobs of the trainers is to make sure that those there before them are the right candidates for the position being trained for, and if not, they relieve them of their duties right there and then. That is a bit of a new twist to me, always in my past, if you're hired, you're hired, and you get to at least begin the new job. Because I have been hired to be in the top store position, and have missed the first couple of steps in the up-the-ladder hierarchy, I am expected to be doubly good, and I was told that specifically this week. Pressure, perhaps? I am going to be part doctor, part counselor, and mostly a SALESPERSON, as well as the leader. Can I do it? Yes, I can...if I am given enough time to learn it, you bet your ass I can do it. OMG - did I just say ass? That is a no-no word in my new profession...LOL I was also very sharply told that my store is the highest producing store in the area, and I should take it as a compliment that I have been chosen to take over that one, as well as a warning, as I am expected to carry on in the current manner. Brown bottle, anyone?

But for now, I am home. I have a ton of studying to do at some point...and I am going to have a little fun later today. Other than that...I have no idea. I'll catch you all later. :)

Do Be Do

I must apologize my friends, you are all being put on the back burner. Not because I want you there, but because I have all I can handle right now. In fact, I miss all of you, I miss being able to read what's going on with all of you. But I have to tell you how very much I appreciate all your words of encouragement, all of your wisdom, and the fact that you all believe in me. Sometimes when I read your comments, I want to cry. I don 't know what I've ever done to deserve any of you, but without all of you and your encouragement, I would be lost. I just wanted you all to know that.

This has been a very hard week. My brain is ready to explode and I see no relief in sight. Today is the last day of week one, and the resulting training day today will be very difficult, many tests and situations that will prove what we do or do not know. I honestly have done the best I know how, if I cannot make it today or any other remaining day, then I may just be in the wrong place. However, this evening I will drive the long way home, and I will get to wake up in my own space for the next two mornings. That should help. Tomorrow, I get to have dinner with all of my kiddos, and that has me very excited. A weekend away will be good, even if I do have to physically beat myself up getting there and back.

I will do all I can to visit you, I really do feel bad. Please understand that I will eventually make it up to you all. I miss you. In the meantime, I hope that you all have a great weekend. I hope that for me, too. I'm out. :)