Friends -- I so, SO apologize. I totally HATE when people just disappear from here, I always think it is so selfish and rude, to leave people that care about you left to worry and wonder. And here I am, doing this to all of you. I am sorry. I have reasons, but they still all end up excuses, and there is no reason good enough to make people wonder and worry about me.
I am okay. (if you know me at all, that is code for I am not okay, not one little bit). But I am still breathing and brushing my teeth and hair each day. I am just so far down that I can't look up and see even a tiny amount of daylight. I live this life of mine the same each day, sitting here, waiting for God-only-knows what, to rescue me. So far, that has not happened. I don't really believe it will happen, not anymore. Pain has taken my life completely over, and I live for the next pill.
I am not working, I am not doing anything, I am not really living. But I am breathing.
I love you all and I am so sorry. One day soon, things will change. I hope. Until then, carry on. :)