And so, where do I begin?
I'm still here, still alive, still breathing. If I told you the truth, I would add that I am not always thrilled about any of it, but here I remain. My life has been on the downhill slide for a year now---and there is no end in sight. Yes, I am still married to the wonderful man, yes --- both of my grandsons are still beautiful and awesome (and there will be another one in May!), and yes all my kids are doing just fine. So I still count the blessings and all that, but to remain true to you, then I would have to say that I am doing the blessing counting less and less. My pain has become my constant companion and we just don't get along at all. Not at all. I have been dealing with the same old shit, and many, MANY new issues that are causing me to teeter along the line of life. One day when I have energy, I will explain all the downright complicated shit. Right now, I just want to tell you all that I have missed you. That I can now blog without worrying that what I might say here could cause the social security peeps to second guess how severely ill I am. I won that case without even going through the usual course of losing initially...then winning on appeal. There really was no question --- I applied, I received it. It's one of those deals where you know that there is no way you can work, but when the social security administration agrees, you suddenly find yourself thinking -- "holy schmankees batman, I must be sick"
I will leave you now with that. I really am not able to sit here any longer, but I will be back. I know that many of you are probably upset with my disappearing act, I do apologize. Until next time. J..