Thursday, December 13, 2012

Once again.

And so, where do I begin?

I'm still here, still alive, still breathing. If I told you the truth, I would add that I am not always thrilled about any of it, but here I remain. My life has been on the downhill slide for a year now---and there is no end in sight. Yes, I am still married to the wonderful man, yes --- both of my grandsons are still beautiful and awesome (and there will be another one in May!), and yes all my kids are doing just fine. So I still count the blessings and all that, but to remain true to you, then I would have to say that I am doing the blessing counting less and less. My pain has become my constant companion and we just don't get along at all. Not at all. I have been dealing with the same old shit, and many, MANY new issues that are causing me to teeter along the line of life. One day when I have energy, I will explain all the downright complicated shit. Right now, I just want to tell you all that I have missed you. That I can now blog without worrying that what I might say here could cause the social security peeps to second guess how severely ill I am. I won that case without even going through the usual course of losing initially...then winning on appeal. There really was no question --- I applied, I received it. It's one of those deals where you know that there is no way you can work, but when the social security administration agrees,  you suddenly find yourself thinking -- "holy schmankees  batman, I must be sick"

I will leave you now with that. I really am not able to sit here any longer, but I will be back. I know that many of you are probably upset with my disappearing act, I do apologize. Until next time.  J..


Coffeypot said...

It is good to hear from you again, and I'm sorry you are not at your best, or even mediocre best. But life is what it is and I admire you for keeping on keeping on. I pray for strength for you and some easy days ahead. If you can, have a Merry Christmas, hon.

Juli said...

Good to see you're still "okay". Keep us posted, good and bad, when you can. :)


Josie Two Shoes said...

YES, YES, YES! It's our beloved Jamie checking in at last!! :-))) I now work for a law firm that specializes in helping people win their disability claims and I really suspected you would have little problem, but I also know it doesn't always go as expected. Hallelujah, for once the system worked as it was intended! I also know it doesn't begin to solve all the problems, financial or otherwise, but it's a start.

I can so easily understand why many days it's hard to count blessings when so much has changed in your life. But still, just as before, you are Jamie, and you amaze me, you are still hanging in there and your heart is still of gold!

Another grandbaby too look forward to, that is an exciting blessing! is this a sibling for the boys? We have our first great-granchild on the way, also a little boy, they found out today! That's pretty exciting too!

I will so much look forward to your posts. It's ok to share the good stuff AND the bad here, you know that from long ago, love and encouragement can be lifesaving and it still runs strong in the blogsphere!

Have a wonderful Christmas and hurry back soon. Prayers are ever with you, I love you dearly!

XOXO, Josie

Golden To Silver Val said...

It goes without saying how I feel about all this....and that includes finally seeing you back online. I have really missed our conversations. God bless, dear friend....welcome back. You're really loved here.

Matt Conlon said...

Welcome back! Sorry to hear about the un-blessed stuff... Wish I could help. :(

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

(((hugs)))Pat aka( ishihtzunot )
This blankety blank won't let me use my blogger name.

Anonymous said...

i'm glad it went thru for you jamie. i guess i knew it would. for a long time i knew that. anyhow. i miss you. i miss you a lot. i hope you have a happy christmas. love those babies! i have a baby great nephew on the way any minute !

Leann said...

It was never about being upset with you but rather caring about you. It is good to hear from you again even with the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I'm glad you were able to get the help you needed. (hugs)

Lena said...

It was so good to see a post from you. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain and not getting any relief. That has got to be so very difficult!

I hope to see you back blogging more often very soon!

Noofy said...

Hey woman, glad to hear you're still here, sorry to hear you are still in pain. If I could take it all away, I would. I hope you find something that will. Until then, keep fighting and dealing. We all have our personal battles, we're winning too! :-) I've ditched my blog unintentionally as well. I plan to return in the New Year. I have some sharing as well. Hang in there, you're due less pain and more happiness, a New Year is coming!

Raine said...

its awesome to see a post from you! I'm sorry you are in so much pain but glad you got your case approved

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