Sunday, March 22, 2009

Happy Birthday Mom

Today , my mom would have been 74. Her birthday was only ten days after mine, and growing up, I loved that it worked out that way. No matter how old I was, I was always able to buy my mom a wonderful birthday gift, because I always got money from my real dad for my birthday, and every year, I spent it on her. She hated that I did this...but seriously, I always loved to give my mom presents, right up until she died. Last year on her birthday, I felt very strongly that it could be her last one and I insisted that everyone---meaning all of my kids, and both of my sisters, be there. It was a great day. She had just been released from the hospital the day before and she looked awful in the pictures that were taken, but she looked wonderful to me, to all of us. Later --when she was feeling better, she told me how embarrassed she was of how bad she looked in the photos. To the rest of us, we were so grateful that she was still with us on one more birthday, we all thought she looked beautiful. Today, I am very grateful for that wonderful day last year. To say I miss her would be a bit of an understatement. However, for her---I am truly grateful that she is no longer suffering, and I have no doubt where she is now.

Happy birthday, Momma. I love you.

11 comments:

SOUL: said...

hiya jamie--

i'm sorry you are hurting today, missin your mom. but i am also happy that you have such good memories of her birthday last year. you made that very special for her-- i'm glad you can look back on the good parts, even when she was sick.

i hope you have a good day-- i know-- sounds about impossible, but it isn't.

maybe you could cook that special meal, in her honor, and have the kids come eat so you don't feel lonely tonight.

i love ya j
ox

Mary said...

Thanks for sharing your beautiful memory of your mother. I know she loves you just as much as you love her. To her I'll say Happy Birthday. Even in passing a mother's love lives on.

Kathy said...

Interesting how you felt so strongly about celebrating that last birthday. You are intuitive -- and how wonderful that you've learned to follow that instinct!

M Chickk said...

Sometimes its the little things that get you through. Knowing that you did something so special for your Mom on what was to be her last birthday, helps in a small way to get through this one. We went through the exact same thing with my dad. We gave him a big surprise birthday party and invited all his family and friends. There must have been about 50+ people. He LOVED it. He died ten days later and we were all gathered together again for his funeral but we were so thankful that he was able to be with everyone just a few weeks before. We look at those pictures now and see how really sick he had been but how happy he was too that so many people cared about him. Take care and many hugs for you today.

desert dirt diva said...

At least you have good memories, and those are the best!!big hugs to you on this day....

CRUSTYBEEF said...

Bless you Jaime on this day. I can't imagine how difficult it is for you..I'm just grateful that you have the nice memories.
Dream well tonight.

love,
E

Raine said...

I'm sorry you are missing her. I think its wonderful that you enjoyed and honored her while you had her.

Golden To Silver Val said...

These fond memories are so very precious. Do something today that makes you happy, close your eyes and feel mom's kiss on your cheek...cause you know she's there with you. Big hugs. I love ya, dear friend. xxoo

fiwa said...

How lucky you were to have such a wonderful mother. I'm so sorry you're missing her today. Wish I could be there to give you a hug.

love you -
fiwa

Cheryl said...

She died knowing how much she was loved. She'll always be loved :)

Terri said...

Happy Birthday to your mom.