Friday again. Holy buckets...where do the days go? My week has been spent mostly in despair, the weather outside - rainy and cold, has matched the feelings inside so I have found it comforting in an odd way. I have walked miles in the rain and liked it, since no one can tell if it's rain on my face or tears, including me. But, I am tired of crying now and I only have to get through this weekend and maybe, just maybe I can get on with the positives..and I know if I search hard enough, I can find them. The weekend? I am having BOTH of my sisters here, alone, no families--theirs, I mean--and we are going to our mom's house early tomorrow to sort out her things, take what she wanted us to have and get rid of the rest. I don't look forward to it, but it has to be done, so that maybe we can all get on with our lives.
Today I have a house to clean and I believe Bill is coming to visit for a while, I talked with him yesterday and he sounded really GOOD. He will go back to Florida next week and it will be awhile before I can see him again, assuming his docs release him then.
Marks mom sent me a Willow Tree statue yesterday, Mother and Daughter, it was the most beautiful gesture and of course, I cried buckets when I got it in the mail. I can't help but wonder how she knew that when I cleaned out our house to move, I got rid of or packed away the house FULL of crap I had, but the two Willow Tree statues I owned still sit where I can see them daily. The two that I already have are from Brenda - Soul, my bestest buddy, and one from my sister, Trav. I have told everyone that loves me how much I love these things...but I don't think they hear. And it's funny that the two people in my life I talk to the most heard me...but anyway, this thing is beautiful and it means the world to me. And before you all think that Mark told his mom I love them, you all can scratch that -- I asked him yesterday if he did and he said he wasn't aware that I even like "those things". Ahh...husbands.
Other things happening in my world, can't say I'm too happy about any of them. Kids and their issues that piss me off and embarrass me...job status for myself and issues for Mark on his....money--ugh....life in general pretty much blows.