Tuesday, November 04, 2008
So I got the wind knocked right out of me again yesterday and I have to confess to you all: If my balcony were higher off the ground, I would jump. I can't go into what happened here, but if it turns out anything like the last time, I am not sure I'm strong enough to hold myself - let alone any other involved parties together. To be perfectly honest, I am totally worthless in that department now, all of my "correct words" and maybe even my faith is lost...I am tired and brain dead and nearly all the way cold and dead inside. Every area inside of me hurts...and I don't mean physically here. Work? Who can work? And more importantly, this morning at least, I just don't care. Let them come and take it all.....I won't be far behind. Please forgive my tone, because I know how bad this sounds, but you all need to understand, I have had enough. And now that I have whined to you all once again, enough said.