Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Holy macinoley, Batman!

So yesterday---I had my day all mapped out in my mind. Of course, it didn't turn out that way. i ended up going to the whippy dip and slinging ice cream all afternoon, then I had to come home and make today's lunch for fifteen...(it is my assistants last day, and i thought it would be a nice gesture to provide a party for her...) not that i am ready for her to leave, I have in fact, sort of ignored her leaving until just the past couple of days, almost like if I pretend it isn't happening, then it isn't.... But she is going, and I have to deal with it. How, you ask? I have no freakin idea...

I am not able to walk this morning, yesterday did me in, not that I was in any kind of shape yesterday morning, and while i can get around with great difficulty, it is embarrassing. Everyone at work is used to it now, but i get really tired and resentful at the questions from customers.."you are walking like you are 10000 years old...what's the matter?" "You are limping, what happened?" "You sure are walking funny, what's he matter with your legs?" I usually tell them its an old foot ball injury, or an old war injury....because if I say anything more, I am going to bite their heads off. I think that is so rude....if you care about me, then ask. If you are merely nosey...then expect me to ask you why your nose is so big, or your gut hangs lower than your knees. Ugly? Yes. But it is the way I feel. I cannot post a sign on my back that says "I have MS, or I have Lupus....take your choice, until the medical community decides, call it what you want". But, some days, I really would like to. I have a dr appt this afternoon, in fact, and i have got to tell him that I need further help, although I believe he is out of options. I was so much better when the cymbalta dosage was higher, but we all know that leads to ridiculous sweating, and low sodium levels, and eventually a bumpy ride in the ambulance....shit. And speaking of cymbalta, I have been reading all sorts of horror stories about those that have been on it for awhile and then tried to quit taking it...it sounds like it's worse withdrawals than heroin, just what i need...

I am off to my day, I am already late. I still have to put the BBQ sauce on the pulled chicken, and i have to buy new buns for the barbecue chicken sandwiches as the kittys decided they might be a fun meal/toy. Swell. I also have to find a presentable bowl for the potato salad...do you guys know how much potato salad ten pounds of potatoes and fourteen eggs makes? A ton! Hope your day is completely awesome! Over and Out.

12 comments:

SOUL: said...

hiya ... boy wonder !!!! LOL
there ya go. that's the name. i haven't had time to get the approval from robin... but i think it fits. the only bad thing... is that robin was actually also "boy wonder"...but could you not share ... awwww c'mon share. batman, robin, and boy wonder..... and boy do you make me wonder. ha. just kidding. you know why boy wonder comes to mind... one... cuz you do so much under so much much pressure and pain...and also....well... i despise wonder woman. i just can't bring myself to say that to you.
anyhow.....
i'm off. gonna cruise a bit, then take the girl to school.
then i need to catch up on all my three days worth of neglect around here.
btw...why am i blogging in your comments? shut me up!
hope you have a good day...

Josie Two Shoes said...

BBQ pulled chicken and potato salad - I'm coming, what time is the party?!! You have such a caring heart, Jamie! Who else would stand on their aching legs after a day of slinging icecream to make a wonderful goodbye lunch for a friend?!

LOL at your cat - I once had one jump up on the kitchen counter and munch a BIG hole out of a cooling German chocolate cake of all things while I ran a quick errand to the store. Hamburger I could understand, but chocolate cake??!

I totally agree about people who ask rude questions. Sometimes I am just floored by the things they will say. My daughter has a long ragged scar on her neck (dark story), and perfect strangers have no qualms in saying "How did you get that?" I told her to say "a car accident" - that usually shuts them up.

I feel for you with the ongoing pain and health issues - yup it is hard when the docs can't pin it down and make it better, and other people asking what your problem is sure as heck doesn't help either! I hope they can find some better answers for you soon. You are too young to be slowed down. I am firing off a protest letter to God on your behalf right now! :-)

Portia said...

you have some serious strength and compassion. i hope you get to enjoy the party, despite the occasion...and have a moment to treat yourself to something, or at least slow down and look foward to that vacation that's coming up:)

Maria said...

I get it too...I have sciatica and some days I walk like I am 94 instead of 49...

I usually just ask people if they will help me out and carry me. That shuts them up....

Let us know what the md has to say, yes?

JYankee said...

sound busy Jamie... take it easy... very generous of you to throw this party...

Amanda said...

The things that people will say sometimes...[shakes head] It's really hard to imagine that amount of potato-salad. I bet it tasted great!

SOUL: said...

pssssst, you up?

simonsays said...

Thanks so much to all of you for commenting here---you guys are the reason that i get up in the morning! OK, that plus the job...and the fact that I can'st sleep...but you all come in first!

The dr is sending me to another neurologist....which I expected and this time, it it one that i want to go to, he helped me tremendouly fifteen years ago...so that is a positive. In the meantime, tho---live with it. He says he feels very strongly that i have MS, but that it needs to be diagnosed...so back to the old drawing board....

simonsays said...

PS...and my lunch was great and she was very appreciative....and it was totally worth it!

SOUL: said...

..
well.. looks like your turn to run the gambit at the doctor gayntlet. hope you come through unscathed, and with some relief, and not so much stress. it's horrible, just trying to find out WHY, and what to do about it. hope you get the answers.

glad your lunch went well..even if a bit sad for you.

hope you have a good day.

SOUL: said...

that would be gaUntlet.
geesh, perhaps i should wait til i can SEE, before i come over here yackin my head off?
happy thursday

CCC said...

potatoes and eggs?! I'm belching just thinking about it! :D