I am cup of coffee number three, but waking up is difficult today. Must be the new pills, which ARE working, by the way, and I am not about to give them up now. I have not been in the severe pain of before for almost a week, and i have not jumped off a bridge or even thought about it for at least that long. Hallelujah! Just kidding on that last part, I am not really suicidal--but I can tell that my mood has been horrendous, if for no other reason that just reading past blog entries. I always know when I need depression help, I clam up and don't want to say anything, and I find myself wanting to talk now----and if you knew me at all, you would be jumping up and down!
Okay---I got tagged my Josie, and I promise I will respond soon. I also agreed to list ten positive things about myself, and I will get to that soon, too. That one could be kind of hard---but I will work on it.
I was left holding the proverbial bag yesterday. It really pissed me off. I can't say too much more about it, but suffice it to say, I should have expected it. It happened just last week, also. But I am stupid enough to believe that others don't do that, I wouldn't, therefore, no one else would. Particularly when I asked you not to. So, there you are----point number one on my list of ten good things about me: I won't run out on you when the going gets tough. That's saying alot.
I had the very best time with all three of my kiddos on Tuesday afternoon. We gathered for an early dinner at a local restaurant, just them and me. And it was so great! It is so rare for us to all be in the same place at the same time, and i cannot tell you how much I enjoyed them. It felt like a gift, one i was very grateful for. :)
This is my long day for the week, a good twelve hours plus. I hate these days, but generally they pass very quickly, and lord knows i have more than enough to do. I have been very busy, and still have plenty.
I suppose I should get with it. Not that I feel like it just yet. Here's to getting my shit together this morning, and i wish the same for you! Later.