Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Yep

The past week has been so difficult for me, emotionally. I think I am a bit overwhelmed, but with what? I have had much, much more difficult times and tasks in this life of mine, but recently what I do have before me is getting to me. Work has been a complete nightmare, and added to my list of tasks that can't get done is a crashed computer. Back up and running now, but behind. The deadlines are mostly self-imposed but still...hard for me to handle. Personally, life is getting me down. Not my own personal baggage, really. But kids with troubles and sadness and issues and money problems, both theirs and mine. And Mark...oh Mark. I am not sure where the mess is heading with him but I cannot begin any more days with struggles with him. I am already teetering on the edge. I feel guilty for complaining because generally wallowing in my messes brings on messes that are bigger and badder. But I am near the point of breaking and then what? I need a vacation. And warm, sunny days. And some kind of happiness beyond that of solitude. Because lately? That's what I look forward to. Better days ahead, right?


***Update...just realized this was my 1000th post. Well wonderful that it is written about such happy, uplifting things in my life. Swell.***

8 comments:

Happyone :-) said...

Sorry to hear your a bit down. Hope today brings you some happiness.

Lynn said...

I hope things are better soon. Here's to better days ahead!

Golden To Silver Val said...

I'll charter a flight for both of us....South of France?, Hawaii?, Bali Hi? Bali Low? Cabana boys, drinks with umbrellas, white beach sand and aqua ocean waves. Never-ending funds and fantastic shopping with a hunk to carry all the packages. Your favorite meals cooked by expert chefs and cleaned up by their skilled assistants. A full-body massage every night before falling asleep on 1,000 thread count sheets. ~sigh~ I've just invited you into one of my daydreams.... enjoy. Dosage: Escape to this place once or twice a day until its summer here. Caution: can be habit-forming.

CRUSTYBEEF said...

I think you should head to see Gypsy. :)

Sorry everything is happening all at once, and it's not happy either. Whoever said everything comes in threes deserves to be given an enema. 3X!

If there's anything I can do, let me know. We've got your back and feel free to vent here, there, everywhere, at anytime.

You should go see a chickflick to get some giggles. How about, "it's complicated?" Bring your J, and the 2 of you can have some mom daughter time, with laughter. Only be prepared for one scene when the two of them accidentally get high.

Thinking of you and hoping your sky gets better..
E

Leann said...

I empathize with you my dearest. I am so sorry you are not feeling up to par emotionally. My prayers will be with you and I hope that you get your island wishes and cabana boy dreams :-)

Hugs go you my dear.

Coffeypot said...

Well that just sucks. Now I'm depressed, too. Thanks!

Oh, congratulations on 1,000.

Tomorrow, or the next day…or next week…or next year things will be better. If not, come on down to Georgia and I’ll take you to the Waffle House for some kick ass coffee.

Jules said...

Cash in your pennies at a Coinstar and buy a ticket to Arizona. I have room and you have an open invitation. I know how to make wallowing in misery a good time!!!!

1,000! If I ever get there someone retire my keyboard.

Love hugs and prayers.

Cheryl said...

I'm gonna escape to Val's daydream. Things are tough with mine right now, but somehow at least for today I'm totally dissociating and I actually feel fine. Thank G-d for my job.