The past week has been so difficult for me, emotionally. I think I am a bit overwhelmed, but with what? I have had much, much more difficult times and tasks in this life of mine, but recently what I do have before me is getting to me. Work has been a complete nightmare, and added to my list of tasks that can't get done is a crashed computer. Back up and running now, but behind. The deadlines are mostly self-imposed but still...hard for me to handle. Personally, life is getting me down. Not my own personal baggage, really. But kids with troubles and sadness and issues and money problems, both theirs and mine. And Mark...oh Mark. I am not sure where the mess is heading with him but I cannot begin any more days with struggles with him. I am already teetering on the edge. I feel guilty for complaining because generally wallowing in my messes brings on messes that are bigger and badder. But I am near the point of breaking and then what? I need a vacation. And warm, sunny days. And some kind of happiness beyond that of solitude. Because lately? That's what I look forward to. Better days ahead, right?
***Update...just realized this was my 1000th post. Well wonderful that it is written about such happy, uplifting things in my life. Swell.***