Monday, September 22, 2008

The last one

First, I want to tell you all what these past two blogging years have meant to me. Sadly, I cannot find the words...so please suffice it to say that you have all meant the world---my world----to me, and to the perspective I have on life. There are not enough thanks out there and even if there were, I wouldn't know how to give them to you. But after careful consideration and several nights awake trying to sort out my life, it is time to shut this blog down. I can no longer fix anything and don't even want to try anymore. I have to get down to the business of living and learning (again) and I don't believe I can do that, along with everything else that remains on my plate. For me, when things become really rough, I become mute. And that is where I am now, and I have no idea how long that will last. Blogging has become a chore, a problem, and I cannot expect all of you wonderful people to put up with my whining and lack of apparent interest in your lives, although that's the farthest thing from the truth. So, I wish you all love and the best life has to offer. I will be around from time to time and will try and comment when I can. Know that I love each of you. Goodbye. Hugs. :)

32 comments:

Joni Dixon-Stanger said...

I'm so sad but surely understand

ac said...

Everything will fall into place. You'll see.... And when it does, I hope you'll come back to us. I'm selfish like that.

I'll miss you. You are one of the sweetest bloggers I've almost never met! Hugs Jamie! ac

PS. I post today, and you stop posting.
Our rhythm is off. lol :)

Brad said...

Much love to you sweetheart. I hope things right themselves soon for you and you can get to a place to come back. I'll be looking for you.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Brad

fiwa said...

Oh Jamie - I hate for anyone to blog if it's become a chore, so I can certainly understand wanting to quit. I know times are tough for you right now and I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers (and your mom too, of course). I hope when you are feeling better that you'll consider blogging again, now and then. I'll miss you something awful though, I really will.

Hugs and love,
fiwa

Moohaa said...

You've been through so much, that it's not surprising that you've hit a wall. Know that each one of us who reads loves you and cares what happens to you in your life. I know it has grown me as a person to meet someone who has chronic pain and to realize that I can fight through it. You will be in my prayers. I love you.

Just Me said...

I'm sorry to see you go but so glad I had a chance to find you before you did.

I only hope for good things for you and your family and I pray things will work out for you. You and your Mom will be in my thoughts.

Hopefully we will cross paths again someday, until then, take care.

Hugs,

Mel

Mary said...

You do have a lot on your plate and I certainly understand your need to concentrate on them. I'll miss you and will remember you with caring and love. I'll also hope you will feel like coming back at some point. Take care my friend.

Cheryl said...

I don't want you to go and I miss you already. Please take a short break, then come back. I need you. Can you e-mail me?

desert dirt diva said...

I'm in tears....i'm so sorry to see you go!hope all will get better for you!
hope your mom is o.k. i'm gonna missssssssss you so much!!!!!!
take care..
BIG BIG HUGS

SOUL said...

my life is changed forever you know. whether you blog again or not.

i'm not trying to talk you in or out of anything. because i do understand. really.

you know how to find me-- when you're ready. when things settle down and you feel better.
it'll happen.

i'm still up. just in case.
if not---
we....
the biggest texas hug there is just went your way.


but i will go with one more thing-- not one of here has ever considered you a whiner-- only an inspiration-- who had to vent on ocasion. and rightfully so.

333

SOUL said...

we....
was weLL...
damn L key still sticky. grrr.
anyhow.
bye-

SOUL said...

oh man.. tell me you didn't delete your blog... did you archive it???
whichever-- i know you felt it best--- but if you dumped it-- well.. i hope you feel better than i did about it.
laterz

Smocha said...

I hope you will return when life evens out for you. You will definitely be missed bunches!

Between you and Soul...my morning coffee hour is going to be real boring now.

I'll be thinking of you and sending prayers your way.

Hugs! Luv me

CRUSTY MOM-E said...

You are an inspiration (SOUL!!) and a truthful woman with the weight of all your loved ones..
I hope you come back for selfish reasons (I always looked at you sorta like my close aunt or older sister--someone that protects and gives out shit too)

I hope things go well and I will never forget you.
Make sure you come back though when you're ready--and send ME an email as well!!

I've got something that you could snuggle up to when you wanna.
:)
Elizabeth
Love, hugs and drama! :)

Raine said...

Be well and dont dump your blog for now. You may find yourself in a place where you want to come back to it later. It often happens. You shouldnt feel that you should "Fix' anything. You havent whined, and venting is actually good for you. Having said that, I have been honored to have known and to have shared your world to have had you shared mine. If and when you feel able, come on back.

desert dirt diva said...

i come bye every day just to see if your back if only for a minute....big hugs

Karen said...

I'm sad to see you go but then I have bailed out as well though for a totally different reason. Maybe when some time has passed we'll both feel like rejoining the blogging world. In the meantime Jamie, I wish you and your family a wonderful vacation and hopefully things will start coming up roses soon.

desert dirt diva said...

have a good day....

The Real Mother Hen said...

I Love You.
Enough said.

The Real Mother Hen said...

And one more thing, thank you for allowing me to share this blogging journey with you.
It's an honor. Really.

Terri said...

seriously, is there anything we can say to bring you back? I hope this is just a temporary absence and that you come back to us. I really enjoyed your blog and really enjoyed you. Having just found you a couple of months ago, this makes me more sad. But I understand. I hope when you come back it's all joy and no sorrow. You've surely had enough of that to last a lifetime. Please don't be a stranger. Terri

Golden To Silver Val said...

Please believe me when I say that I have NEVER thought of you in any other way but a very strong, caring woman! You've had a lot to deal with, all crammed into a very short period. I just hope that you will take a little break and come back as I, along with everyone else, will miss you so very much. I am so happy that mom is getting better as each day passes and glad that you're taking some YOU time right now. Please come back after you've had a rest and let us know that you're A-OK.
Big hugs to you and may the angels always watch over you and yours. Love, Charlotte

Summer said...

I understand.
More than anything I want you to be happy.

C

Amanda said...

For me, when things become really rough, I become mute

Me too.

I totally understand and hope you and your family will be ok.

I will miss you.

SOUL said...

i'm tryin to find you--
but if you aren't around.. just know i'm thinkin boutchya.
as usual

oxox

ac said...

Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you today. ac

ruthibel said...

awww. Wishing you all the best.

Billy said...

My heart hurts....

fiwa said...

Hi Jamie, I was thinking about you today and wondering how you are doing, so I thought I would come by and say hello on the off chance you get your comments sent to your email.

I miss you and hope you're doing well.

Take care of you -
love
fiwa

CRUSTY MOM-E said...

I hope someday both you and Gypsy will return...but until then, I'll go on missing both of you...

Thinking of you today!

E~

ac said...

Just thinking of you butter bean! ac

SOUL said...

LOL
i can't believe she called you butter bean !
HAHAHAHAHA
SNORT!

oh that almost made me forget why i came. ahaa

ok... peeps are askin about you --
i think you either need to toss a post up here sooner than soon.. or do a little i'm alive guest post on mine-- cuz i think some people would like to know that you didn't die on your vegas trip.
ya reckon?

oh and btw--
go see my office.
i want you to come have coffee in it sometime.
bye-- i haveta go take the kid to the dr
ox
take a nap while im gone..i'm sooo tired