Sunday, June 01, 2008

Well crap...

Good Morning. It's Sunday, and it's seriously about time. This week has literally been hell, and it was shortened by a day off on Monday! In fact, when I think about it, my life has been hell for the past four weeks...if not longer. I am running on way past empty, no energy, no passion, no fun, no interest. I probably ought to let you in on a secret I have been keeping the past couple of days: There is no way this job is going to work for me. I don't like anything about it, other than the clients and the reason they are there. Seems like that should be the most important thing, doesn't it? It isn't. The MOST important thing at my new job is corporate bullshit. Corporate policy this, corporate policy that, rules that make literally no sense, no time during the day to figure out what the hell I should do next, and then a call - "hey, I didn't get a report on so and so this morning..." Well of course you didn't. I was busy doing the work I thought I was hired to do. Reports on progress and SALES nightly. Okay, I can deal with that, not that I understand what they will do with that information at eight pm, but okay, I'm sending it. And that means a total of eight reports, EIGHT, that virtually all say the same thing, in a different format. And they are sent to the same four people, every night. It cannot be at eight am the next morning, it must be at night. Fine. But now, they need a mid day report, too. A fucking mid day report! This is how many people we have presented the program to, this is how many bought it. This is how many lead calls we have had, this is how many appointments we have left today. No problem, I can do that, too. The problem comes in when you run about a hundred and a half clients through the place each day, most there for weigh ins and a short consult, but some has issues and troubles and problems that have to be dealt with, after all, that is what they paid for. I can only schedule so many employees each day, we have to keep payroll costs down at all times, and when I walk out to the waiting area, and it's overflowing, I am NOT going to make those folks wait while I'm putting together the mid day numbers..No this isn't going to work. I have to hurry to the bank each morning, the deposit must be made by ten am. Okay, I'll do that that, but you and I both know that ten am has nothing to do with anything. But apparently they keep track of the time stamp on the receipt. And, the most actual cash I have ever had to deposit so far was about fifty dollars! Most pay by credit card or electronic check, so I am hurrying off to get that seventeen dollars deposited....Bloody hell, what a bunch of morons.

I am trying so hard to be the good little employee. I am afraid it's just not in me. I am too much of a rebel, a bitch. Already, I want to tell them to stick their rules up their you know whats... And I haven't even begun to tell you all about the staff I have, already there has been a damned near bloody mess over a two hundred dollar sale, which translates into about five dollars in that employees paycheck, but we have had tears and drama and ugh...BULLSHIT. I am not going to be able to do this.

I am however, stuck there until I can find something else. My attitude is bad, and I had better find that something else soon. I really had thought this would be the perfect thing for me, and I am really disappointed, in the job, in myself, in all of it. Not to mention, I am exhausted beyond belief. That part alone is probably the worst - and this week, hopefully, that will get better. I will have to stay in the city, and I hate that idea, but I cannot do this anymore. I want to be moved and settled so badly, we have not gotten the final word on the apartment yet, but the manager of the property said so far, everything looks great, employment verification is all that's left. So, next weekend, we should be able to move some of our things in. There is not one thing packed in my house, I have no idea how any of this will work out, and no time or energy to even think about it. Oh my, I think I should stop writing now, I am depressing even me! So, you all have a great Sunday. I am going to try to get to all of your pages this morning, I have missed you.



Smocha said...

Well, damn girl. That sucks:)

I know what you are going through because I am still watching my husband go through the very same thing.

Got the new job...loathed it..had to find a new one. Now the waiting is still on . he has a month to go in the hated job.

It's been a crappy 6 months. lol

Hopefully it won't be that long for you:)

Someday you'll look back and laugh at "that crappy ass job you had "

Hope you get the apartment!

Hang in there:)

SOUL: said...

hang in there baby--- no contract-- no commitment --
and don't be down on yourself. exhaustion plays with a persons head like not much else.
it'll get better. trust me.. i am your crystal ball ya know. :))

take it easy today-- if ya can.


Summer said...

When I started reading you today, you were reading and commenting on my page.

I'm so sorry you're not liking the job. It does sound hellish for sure.

Did you sell your house?

Mary said...

Jamie, I'm so sorry you are stuck with a job you hate. I know that I wouldn't be a success under those circumstances. That Company's goal is the almighty dollar - clients, employees, and the world in general be damned. Staying in the city will help some; being able to move will help more; getting into position to find a more acceptable job will be best of all. I'm thinking of you and praying that the fire in this hell soon burns out and you get much needed relief. Hang in there, girl, your friends are out here picturing better things in your very near future.

Golden To Silver Val said...

Awww Jamie...don't be hard on yourself. I knew this wasn't the job for you. This company is only interested in SALES, not the actual clients and their personal struggles. You are more of a people person. I was hinting at this in several of my comments to you...that you have to really believe in what you're doing to be happy and I knew this wasn't YOU. See if you can give them a heads up that you're not staying and give them time to train someone else while you man the ship. In the meantime, put out your feelers again. I know the right job is out there for you...just waiting for you to find it. If you know what your new address is going to be...start checking around in the vicinity....I just have a feeling you may find something close to "home". Big hugs to you, dear friend. Your standards are too high for this place. Charlotte

Anonymous said...

i agree a lot with what Val says... somehow I knew this job was too "corporate", but hey... and old dog can learn new tricks. but if it really isn't for you..then i would say...get to looking for something else...time and life is too short to be dealing with that kinda BS all day long!

ac said...

They have you doing stuff that really doesn't need to be done while other stuff that really does need to be done gets brushed aside.... ? Gawd girl! I would hate that! Rushing to the bank with $17.00...!? These people are totally insane. I'm sure you could make this job work if you had SANE people in the corporate office. ac

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fiwa said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that. :(

I'll keep my fingers crossed that maybe, by some miracle, it will get better. And I'll keep my fingers crossed on the other hand that if it doesn't get better, something else wonderful will come along.

Poor you - I just want to give you a hug. You sound like you're at your wit's end. Sweet thing - just hang on.


Gypsy said...

You know that sleep deprivation is a form of torture right? Guaranteed to drive you out of your effin' mind (thanks Val).

I'm sure you're right that this job is not for you and it certainly sounds like their priorities are screwed up but maybe you could hang in there until you get your living arrangements sorted out and get a real handle on the job.

It could be part exhaustion and part not feeling comfortable yet with their expectations that make the job seem even worse. If you chuck it in before you get an apartment won't that effect your chances on that?

Whatever happens Jamie, I hope it will all work out for the best.

Brad said...

I'm sorry things arn't working out. Wish I could wrap up some energy and send it your way - I'm sending good thoughts - Hope it gets better.

Kelly Jene said...

I am so sorry this is so bad! It really does suck. I sure hope another job presents itself soon. I'm glad you are able to have compassion for the clients. It would seem that that is what it would be all about. But corporate BS seems to get in the way of every good thing.

Big hugs.


ouch, that's awful! Corporate america does suck because all we are or were or could be to them are a digit..that's it...

But on a lighter note, I have to say with all the reports that they're asking of you,..well,. have you ever seen the movie OFFICE SPACE?

"Uh,..yeah,...i think you're gonna have to come in on Saturday.."

TPS reports.
Hang in there! :)

Portia said...

I'm sorry, but I don't blame you a bit. I have been knee deep in that sh!t and was never so happy to leave anything behind me. Watch Office Space. If it cracks you up like it does me then you'll feel tons better. Then, find something symbolic of all the corporate BS to toss out a window, like a copier or printer..:D

Portia said...

HAHAHA! I just saw that Crusty had the same thought...obviously your post was eerily reminiscent of Office Space:)

Amanda said...

Sounds like the perfect nightmare. No way this job would work for me either. I hope you can find a way out of that and soon.

Rebecca said...

Good grief, woman! What a nightmare. I hope another job comes along soon! This sounds like the pits. Maybe I'm just behind on my reading, but what does your organization sell, anyway?


bonnie said...

OH, this is bad. Get out fast. Most "service" jobs are never what you dream. I hate it. What have we come to?