The first of another month. It seems that my own life is slipping right by me, and although i am obviously there to take part in it, I cannot keep up with the passage of time. Does that make any sense to you? Good Lord, I am now asking questions to no one in particular....but if I were to ask anyone in my life, they would have no understanding of what the hell I am talking about.
I probably ought to warn you readers...I have no idea what i am going to post about today, there are many things on my mind this morning...it could get kind of ugly.
I was not here at all yesterday, as expected H and I went out on Friday evening, had a good time, it was very late (or should I say very early) when we got home. I got up for work, but man...I was feeling it. I know, I know I should have more sense than that, it had already been a hard week, and i was already exhausted, but i put my favorite old saying in place "I can sleep when I'm dead"....and carried on. Owner called, I was getting ready to get ready to go....he said for me to take the day off...I thought that was quite nice of him...he knew the week had been hard on me, and he had not been around alot of the week, said he had things under control. I was quite grateful, and i went back to bed. H was off yesterday as well, and he was still in bed. We woke up again at one in the afternoon, I got up and made chicken strips for breakfast, then we went back to bed, watched a really bad movie, and I woke up later after four pm. I have not done anything like that for years! I never did get dressed yesterday! In any event, I was as lazy as lazy can be. H and I had a very good day, and that is a rarity, as well. Until last evening, and i have literally no idea what happened. He got really assy, but whatever the deal, it was his. Nothing had occurred----and this is why I am bad at relationships. I get tired of the mind games, the bullshit. If you have a problem, just frickin' say so. I swear, I will not be married forever. I am so very tired of the crap. I would be good at being alone----the couple thing is JUST NOT WORTH IT.There was no fight, there was no exchange of any kind of negative, he just got moody and crabby and ugly----YS had stopped in to bring back the vacuum that he had borrowed, he was here for maybe fifteen minutes, I suppose it had something to do with him, but if I ask you what the deal is, and you choose to tell me nothing, then i won't ask again. Damn, why can't one whole day go well? Maybe I ask too much. There has been so little time between the two of us recently, and apparently we do better when we don't get the opportunity to be together. I am not meant to be married anymore, really. I cannot handle the bullshit any longer.
This day will be good-I really have alot to do, especially after doing nothing yesterday. I don't know if I am in the mood, I am waiting for the spirit to move me. That could be a long wait. My race will be on, and I have a book calling my name. H has to work all day. I think that OS will be here at some point, I am the cheapest Laundromat he knows. :) Have a wonderful Sunday! Out.