Scatterday

You know, I spend a lot of my time wondering. Thinking. Trying to decide if the universe points me here, or if I only think it does. I pray. I talk to God alot, but usually regarding others. I always think my praying power works so much better for those that I would die for. Meanwhile, I wander about and wonder. At this time in my life, I am open. Seriously. Having spent ALL of my years doing what I believed needed to be done, should be done, rightfully done, now I think selfishly...but act in the opposite. I am obsessed with doing as I please, but despise that what I please is what I would do and did, all my life. Is that conditioning or am I just a boring do-gooder? I am like my cat, standing in the open doorway. I don't necessarily want to go out, I just want the option.

And with that, I need to go to the gym.

And you know what else? I want a steam mop...and a nose stud.

Happy Saturday, y'all. :)