How is this possible?

How is is possible that I can be FIFTY minus two and not know what the hell I am doing with my life?

How is it possible that I can be in this financial mess that I have gotten myself into at this age?

How is it possible that I can be the age I am and still feel like an orphan with no parents left on this earth?

How is it possible that I can't make even a small decision these days, and I used to make GIANT decisions every day of my adult life?

How is it possible that I break into tears at anything lately, or even nothing?

How is it even remotely possible that I can go on this way?

How is any of this possible?