Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Pillow talk - just you and me

You know, I don't sleep much. An hour or two, here or there. My most comfortable sleeping is done sitting straight up --- so much pain, otherwise. Now --- if someone would invent a bed that a person could sleep in standing up --- you would have a million dollar product. At least for me...but I digress....

I guess since I don't sleep, it makes sense that I don't dream, or at least don't remember dreaming. However, last night, I had the dream to end all dreams. It was the kind that was so wonderful, so unbelievably awesome that I kept going back to it. I have only been able to do that a handful of times in my life. I swear, this dream had to have been hours long, all broken up.

I really can't remember the little details. I honestly can't tell you all that were present, I only remember a few. But there were others...and whomever I was with, whomever was by my side, that person was made for me. That person was meant to be with me, was a part of me, was my heart and soul. I belonged. Truly BELONGED. Right there, wherever it was that I was, I was meant to be there. I wish so much I could say the right words to make anyone understand...no matter what I was, what I look like, how old I was, in pain and sick or perefectly well, I fit right there. And that was what was so completely mind blowing. So truly wonderful that I didn't want to wake up. I wanted to go with them...forever.

Just a dream. That is all.

7 comments:

Coffeypot said...

Sounds like you are talking about Jesus. Not a bad companion...

Juli said...

Could it just be that your mind is searching for solace and a peaceful break from everything in your day?

I love the dreams that I can wake from and then go back into. Its like your chance to "do over" your day.

C.A. said...

Jamie, I understand exactly what you're describing. :)

Have faith that whoever this was...in whatever form...one day you WILL find them.

Wishing you a peaceful, pain free day.


Big Hugs...


Cindi Ann

Josie Two Shoes said...

I believe that we all have that perfect place of belonging, and maybe life as we know it is just shadows or bits and pieces of the whole picture. It sounds like God wanted you to know that you have a place and role where you fit perfectly, and someday you will be there. What a comforting thought, and yes, how sad to wake up from such a wonderful dream!

Leann said...

I agree with the above comments and am glad you found solace in the dream. But most of all.....I am happy it brought you joy.

Maria said...

Hi Jamie~I was so happy to see you back here but so sad that you are feeling so bad. Being ill all the
time really does suck. This year was the first time in 5 years that I found myself back in the emergency room a few days before Christmas. Something about wanting to do it all & feeling so bad that you can't no matter how hard you try that all of that stress & exertion just caused my body to shut down. Dealing with pain every single second really does blow but don't ever apoligize for complaining here. Let it rip, sweetie. We've missed you!

Raine said...

what a lovely dream- may you have more like that