Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Twas the day before Turkey, and all through the house

Here I am, at home...on the day before Thanksgiving. It's okay - this was a planned day off. After all, I have a huge meal to pull together by tomorrow noon, somehow. The days before today, Monday and Tuesday - they weren't so planned. Yes, I was home then, too. Well, on Monday I was home early in the afternoon. Yesterday, I was back at home before ten am. Yes--I am having all kinds of trouble walking, sitting, laying, even just effin' breathing. My pain level is about a 13, on a scale of 1 to 10. I cannot walk, not far anyway, I am doing this weird loping, loose legged thing that I used to do before my neck surgery. Sometimes. Not always. Suffice it to say I am in really bad shape. I am taking large amounts of narcotics, they really do help. But oh Buddy, when they wear off, lookout. Tears and gnashing of teeth, and the really ugly cry. Blenheim. Nothing I can do at this point.I just swallow pills the minute the next one is allowed. I am merely trying to make it though another day, job intact. So far, so good. We'll see how it is on Friday. They do understand as much as they can -- hell, I don't understand, not really...and we are all waiting to see if the stimulator helps. A week from Friday, the trial one will be put in/on. I dread it and look forward to it, if that makes any sense.

So, pies and cake and stuffing..please make yourself. Christmas trees, please decorate yourselves...

So here goes:

Hopefully, more than nothing.

Later.

14 comments:

Moohaa said...

Ok, why are you cooking? Why can't someone else do it? I know when we're in constant pain it's nice to do things normally instead of just living thru the pain. But really, you should be taking care of yourself.

I can't wait to see/hear if the stimulator does anything.

You'll understand this: I'm pretty certain my back surgery was a failure. The pain in my legs is not going away. They cut me off all pain meds saying at more than a month after surgery I shouldn't need it anymore. Hmm... I would understand if it didn't hurt.

Anyway. I'm thinking of you and so wishing you a less pain filled holiday. And get someone to help you!!

Noofy said...

Oh Jamie! I hope you find relief soon. I literally feel your pain through your words. All the grocery stores in our area are offering a complete turkey dinner with all the fixins. A no-fuss Thanksgiving, you should consider! As for the tree, stock up on your booze/beer, order pizza, invite friends over, tell them you're having a tree trimming party - tree decorated done!

Hope your medicine can mask your pain to get through tomorrow. One more week for the stimulator, take it one day at a time. Hang in there baby! Sending gentle hugs for better days to come. Many blessings dear friend.

Jo-Anne Rambling said...

Although I do not suffer that type of pain my mother does without her morphine she can barely manage to walk a few steps at a time but she never stops she is always doing something for someone and as long as she has her morphine she copes some how........at the end of the day though she is really worn out.....So I think you are an amazing woman to do as much as you do each day, I raise my glass to you...........

Lena said...

Jamie,

I don't know how you are doing it! Please rest up when you can! A very Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!

HUGS!
Lena

Mems said...

Happy Thanksgiving, Aunt Jamie! I hope that you have a wonderful day with the family, and that the pain will stay away long enough for you to enjoy the celebrations & get your tree up! Love you bunches!!! Hugs!!!

Julianna said...

You know, they do sell Turkey dinners all ready to go at the grocery store.

Please try and take care of yourself. Your family needs you in one piece more than they need turkey with the fixin's.

azjuleseleven said...

I wish I could cook for you my friend!! It would be such a pleasure.

I would park you on the couch with some fine herb and keep your wine glass filled. Mark would rub your feet while you guys watch a movie that you've been dying to see.

With the smell of turkey and stuffing and the promise of my "special" brownies for desert, you'd be feeling no more pain. By the time family arrives, you've forgotten it altogether.....

I wish you a pain free, family filled, turkey smelling day Jamie!!

And Much, much LOVE

Cheryl said...

Ohhh, I think Jules' plan is the best so far. You need to be in AZ!

As usual, I wish you were put on a pedestal and taken care of. I hope you're well enough to enjoy the day tomorrow.

Triple hugs!

R. Jacob said...

I look forward to seeing you write about a pain free day. I am sure the words would vibrate on the screen with happiness.
Happy Thanksgiving

Leann said...

Bloody hell. My comment did not post the first time.

I truly hope the neck stimulator helps with the pain and you are able to blog of dancing around naked in your apartment :-) I hope you had a wonderful day with family and they treated you as Jules and Mark would have :-) Blessed be my friend. Much love and many gentle hugs.

Raine said...

Oh Jamie- I am sorry you are in such pain. I really pray the stimulator helps you.

Beau's Mom said...

We had a fairly decent thanksgiving with a store purchased dinner. The potatoes were not as I would have made, neither was the dressing - but I didn't have to make it.

Just because the calendar orders us to cook, and Norman Rockwell has us all brainwashed, it's time to take a stand and say "ENOUGH".

Janie Fox said...

How did you survive. You should have eaten out. You are a trooper little friend. I am amazed at your strength!

Janie Fox said...

How did you survive. You should have eaten out. You are a trooper little friend. I am amazed at your strength!