You know, blogger has this amazing little button named "undelete", and I am surprised at how happy I feel to see my little space back up there in the world of bloggers, once again.
Our blog group has changed drastically. So many have left the blog0sphere...or have quit writing except on RARE occasions. I certainly understand this, although I'm sure that everyone has their own reasons. I do believe that facebook and twitter have had a huge hand in it. I do have a facebook page, but I find it generally unsatisfying, and use it mostly as a way to connect with my kids. If they are facebooking, then they are alive. :)
I have been busy these past two months. I have been working, and getting my life in order and I have made progress. Many huge decisions have been made by me, and I am diligent in seeing them through. All of them take time, and it's easy to fall back into the old life patterns that almost fifty years of living have produced, but I am getting there.
1. Financial issues are behind me, if you don't count the destroyed credit and the years it will take to rebuild it.
2. Mark has been given his walking papers and I am battling to get him to follow through.
3.I bought off my kids (ugh, that sounds awful), but I gave them the last dollar they will get from me, because they are desperate. I reserve the right to help when I feel like it.
4.I am working on my attitude about my job. I know too well that I have it made in that department and am trying very hard to feel appreciative of the freedom I have there. After all, it does (just) pay the bills.
5.I am working on a creative project that I have wanted to start all my life. The going is slow, but still, it's going.
6.I am trying to shake off the old pressures, the old ideas, the old way of doing most everything. It is time I live the way I want to, the way I choose. Surprisingly, this is difficult to manage, for someone who has lived because of others for so long. Baby steps, and some are in the wrong direction, and call me selfish if you want, but it's the only key to my survival.
So, having said that, I am back on the doctor circuit once again. I have injured my lower back, and need surgery. My neuro has asked me to wait however, due to the complicated nature of the mess I have from L1 through L5. He is afraid that yet another surgery will leave my quality of life in worse shape than now. Apparently as long as I am walking and smiling, this is the best I can hope for. I am on a new regimen of medications and restrictions. No more bicycle for me...I am sure this is how I have hurt in in the first place. It makes me sad, but I am trying to feel grateful that I am walking at all. Apparently, those days could end.
And enough about me. Happy FRIDAY blogging world! Thanks for taking me back. :)