Thursday, July 24, 2008

Rainy Thursday

So, I had this whole post written. I had all the details, all my feelings...all of it right her in this little blogging box that we all write in daily. But I could not hit the publish post button...too close to reality, too much information, all of my heart scrawled on this page...I couldn't do it. Let's just say that I am having difficulty understanding what I'm doing now, job-wise, life-wise, everything-wise. This is an unusual position for me to be in, and I am just not that good at putting my heart on these pages. So, I will have to let you know when it's all over. It's the best I can do.

Today is Mark's birthday. Wish we liked each other better than the current situation of the last few days.

Happy Thursday.


Terri said...

Happy birthday to Mark. You sure do seem to be getting a large share of bad, you poor thing. Well you know there's only so far down you can go before you have to come back up. here's hoping "up" is right around the corner.

SOUL: said...

i'm thinkin of you --- wish i was closer.

Mary said...

Happy b'day to Mark. I'm so sorry life is being so user unfriendly to you right now. I wish I knew something to say that would make it go away, but I don't. So. . .just know that I care and that I'm thinking good thoughts for you and sending you a big hug.

Brad said...

Sweet sis - you do what ever you need to do here. Share what you want when you want. I think you know we're in your camp.

I have issues with change. I understand the stress of being 'up in the air' about things. But don't sweat it too much, it's not like they can take away your birthday.

Happy Birthday to Mark. Do something unexpected for him today. It will make YOU feel better I bet. Flowers maybe ? or a good cigar ?


Gypsy said...

Boy, I wish I had a dollar for every one of those kinds of posts I've written. Tomorrow is always a brand new day Jamie and hopefully the sun will be shining on you both.

Big hugs winging their way straight to you.

Happy Birthday Mark.

Portia said...

I gotcha. I can't put it all out there either- especially unfinished business. I usually have to wait for that 20/20 perspective hindsight offers, when the emotions aren't as strong. I know it's rough though, and I'm wishing you the best possible turn of events all round.

Golden To Silver Val said...

Boy...sometimes life just gets in the way of us feeling secure and happy, doesn't it. As my mom used to say..."none of this is forever" put on your happy face and celebrate your guy's birthday like never before and sweep your cares up in the dustpan to go out with the trash. Wishing good things to come your way....and SOON. Hugs, Charlotte

Kelly Jene said...

Happy Birthday to Mark! I'm sorry things are stinky right now. Each day is a new day to start over in any situation. Much love my friend.

ac said...

Thinking of Mark on his B'day.. and hoping for much better times (and very soon!) for you, my friend.

Cheryl said...

I like how Mary put it: user unfriendly. In other sucks. It sounds like this may not be the job for you. It's certainly not what was presented. Can you take your new license elsewhere?

I'm sorry finding the right job is turning out to be so difficult. And causing other problems. It won't be better soon enough, I'm sure.

Smocha said...

Well ,as usual ...everyone beat me to all there was to say.

I'm thinking "man, I hope she didn't catch the Williams curse."

It's been known to happen:)

These things seem to go in cycles, like hair growth.Your bad spell WILL be over soon .

I just read the other day that your hubby was only 43. Happy Birthday Mark!
I had no idea you were married to a baby Jamie. lol
Seems to be a growing trend.

Hang in there, tomorrow may be wonderful.

SOUL: said...

i told you jamie-- the curse really is contagious.
but some people think it's worth the risk.. :))
love you