I am doing the best I can.
I really wanted the line above to be my whole post, but you know how i am, I can't keep my mouth shut. I really am. Doing the best I can. The problem is, my best is falling way short of my expectations, let alone the expectations that others have placed on me. And there are many. So, failing isn't my thing. I am not happy about it one little bit, and while I am keeping up, barely, that isn't the way I roll. Shit.
But I am doing the best I can.