Overwhelmation --- Happens every year about this time, when one realizes that the big HO will be here in mere days, and still so MUCH left to do.
Just as I was sighing that big sigh of relief, just as I was giving myself a big 'ol giant pat on the back, I looked at the calendar and realized that I've only a bit of time before the big Santa arrival. I really thought I had it all under control just a few days ago. I had bought everything gift - wise, it was all wrapped and under the tree. I have only put a little on my credit card, the rest all paid for with cash. Oh yeah..I was feeling good. But this morning? I realize it's only one week until the day. ONE WEEK. I have not even started on the stockings..in fact, I don't even have the stockings yet, at least not for the little guys in my life. I have not shopped for food, I have not gotten my apartment "ready" for company-my son Craig and his beautiful gf Dani will be here late Monday night. I have not started the baking. One of the gifts I ordered has been cancelled so a replacement has to be found. I have not spent any time at all with my grandsons this week so I see them tonight for dinner. I have to shop after that, and let's face it, this old lady just can't take it all in one evening these days. By eight pm, I am a zombie. I have generally been up since three-thirty or four am, walked/ran several miles at the gym, worked eight hours...and so I die about eight. If only I could stay awake and not get tired, I could get so much more done. Bleh. These are the reasons that every year, when the big celebration is all over, I swear "Never Again". But by the time it rolls around again, I have forgotten the way I am feeling this morning. One way or another, I know I will manage it all. I always do. But I honestly hate the feeling that I will carry with me for the next few days. I do it to myself, I am the only one with the expectations of perfection, no one expects it, or asks for it. But I YAM THE WAY I YAM I guess. I will never change. The celebrations and traditions will never change. And I will keep on, keepin' on. But I am going to tell you all right now---- "never again". Teeheehee, yeah, right.
Overwhelmation. Yep, that sums it up. Happy Friday. :)